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I can truely say 2004 has been the year I have changed most. Be it image or mentally, I've gone through so much teenage drama I use to think was an urban myth when I was in middle school, even 9th grade. I think my year started by meeting... I'm not sure. Corrine Turpin?
Dear Turp,
I know I messed up, and can't take anyhting back that I did. I royally messed up, and I am paying for that now, and probably forever, by being without your friendship. Oddly enough, your friendship meant a lot to me, I of course had to go and ruin something that was going good. I was incredibly childish in my actions, and for that I'm sorry. If I could take one thing back in 2004 it would be anyhting I did to make you cry or dislike me. I'm just hoping the years ahead will bring us closer, I know we'll never be as close as we could have been, but being merely nice to eachotehrs faces is all that really matters to me.
Dear Kevin Obrien,
I shouldn't have listended to you.
Dear Devon,
It sucks that we made some poor decisions and are now paying for it by things being extremely akward between us. We'll always have that PCC bond? I dunno, maybe. Your a cool kid, maybe when your band gets together you can play my party.
Dear Deftone Dani,
You, of all people, have most impacted me in 2004. It's so weird to think we just met this year. That you are one of my best friends and I trust you with my life, and we've only been like this for months? I mean... look where I am now. When we met I was incredibly childish and thought-less. I only cared about myself and just thought of myself as the cute little girl that everyone liked. Reality hit me harshly though, but it was good for me to realize that life didn't revolve around me. You showed me this.
You made my entire summer and then some. It started out by our little adventure to the Daughters/Some Girls/Sex positions show. Wow... anyhting that could have gone wrong did, then anyhting that could have gone amazing did. You were truely happy that night, seeing your soon-to-be boyfriend and flirtin' it up. Even though Carolyn is my biggest fan, I have nothing aganist her and had fun taking that little trip and spying on you from the side of the church.
And then there were our amazing weekends, you know, before you got a job. Spending those summer days just talking about our boyfriends and how happy we were, walking to the beach, for food, haunted shacks.... just going up and down onset ave. brings back memories of my amazing summer everytime and I always have stories to tell the new people taking these walks with me. Nothing could ever compare to our dance parites in front of middle-aged people clubs. NOTHING.
You introduced me to so many new things and people. I can honestly say you, of all my friends, had have the most impact on me. You taught me to grow up, and for that I am so thankful. Thankful for you and your loving, caring nature and most of all, your amazing friendship. And knowing, no matter what I go through, I know you'll always be there for me. I mean, come on, you were the first person I cried to when I had my heart broken by my first boyfriend. I'l always be there for you. I love and miss you Dani Marie.
Sara Saleem,
Oh man, we were best friends. We had little emo talks and had our little battle between Josh. Good times, I was horrible for being mad at you for going back out with Josh, it was selfish of me. I mean, he was your first, I had no reason to be mad. I love and miss you. We never talk anymore, that hurts. Your so beautiful and amazing. Please hang out with me soon.
Josh Vieira,
You were like.... my first REAL crush. I remember I was so angry at Lizzy because of that dumb prank that you played on me. We hung out a lot for a few months, but in the end we ended up eing best friends. I could just talk to you about anyhting, over the year we've drifted and I hate it, but your busy with your girlfriend and band and job, so I will wait, and when your ready to hang out, I'm always here. Love you buddy.
Rachelle Rollins,
I met you in 9th grade, sometime during the winter, when you transferred from Abington. I thought you were so pretty and just someone I could talk to? Then I had second thoughts when I saw you with Michaela Crook (ewww) at the lunch table. Luckily, we sat together in English and we hung out that weekend. We could just talk about... stuff.... for HOURS. We hung out so much and your so gorgeous and amazing and love Brand New as much as I do and I miss you like crazy. I'm going to call you more and make more plans, god knows i'm never home anymore and no one can ever get a hold of me. But, I do miss you. Stop going to Abington each weekend & hang out with me!!! We have so much catching up to do.
Matt Scott,
Wow man, so much reminds me of you. Just today I was kissing my boyfriend and I pulled away to ask him a question and he did something, I think snapped his fingers, and I just yelled out 'AHAHAHAHA THAT REMINDS ME OF MATT SCOTT!!!'
You never cease to make me smile of laugh with your wicked dumb yet intelligent jokes, your a great friend, even if you are convinced I have a relative who is a Froot Loops mascot.
Bill Contois,
I really don't know where to begin with YOU.
I remember the good times when you were completely infatuated with me, and I wanted nothing to do with you. But your persistence and drive for me to like you was a complete turn on. You were my first boyfriend, you totally made my summer. Almost every memory I have you are involved in. I talked to you about everything, I learnt to love you. You weere the first boy I ever did love, or at least admitted that I loved. Even though in the end I was hurt, it was all worth it, and wouldn't take one thing back. It's too bad had had to get to know the bitchy Taylor, cause that's really not who I am. I know thats the one you liked, but it really wasn't me.
You put up with my late night phone calls crying to you becaue my best friend was drunk out of her mind. You brought me on my first date, gave up your Blood Brothers wristband for months. I took something from you that you can never take back. I'll always have a special bond with you. William Adam Contois, your a great kid, it's just sad things had to end up the way they did. I'm sorry I wasn't a sufficent girlfriend, but the summer was enough for me. So all I really wanna say it.. thank you for the best summer of my entire life.
Paul Saucier,
Seeing you every once in a while is cool. I'm not sure, there isn't much to say about you, but that I am so thankful for introducing me to Amanda. If it wasn't for that incredibly akward trip to Chilies I would never know her. You did something for me that I'll always be grateful for.. you picked me up that time all the way from Braintree cause I was staranded at that dance competition and had no other way home. But it was Paul to the rescue to carry my luggage and drive me home.
Oh yeah, thanks for bringing me to see The Notebook and begging with your dad to go with me. That was fun.
Amanda Higgins,
You are one of my best friends, thanks to Paul. It's crazy to think we just met at the end of the summer. Thank you for cutting my hair and coming with me to shows. I love you so much. I wish I could be creative, but our friendship is pretty much straight forward. Sneaking boys in, me and Joe prostituting you, piercing our septums (a million times) dance parties, going to all about records, just talking about the days whne you'll finally be able to drive. I know you'll always be there for me, your one of the only girls I like or can stand. Even if your mom isn't to happy that you get into car accidents with me, no one could ever take you from me.
Brendan Doyle,
I don't think you could possibly comprehend how much I liked you. We have drifted so much, it's unbelieveable. We promised eachotehr we weren't going to ever grow apart or lose what we had, I cared about you so much. You were the boy that I could totally be myself around, but I couldn't wait around knowing we could never be more than friends. I always ALWAYS ALWAYS want to be close with you and know I can talk to you, and you know I am always here for you to talk to. I enjoy trying to make you feel better.
We did some pretty incredibly things together, you gave me the best Halloween of my life, I can't even begin to thank you for the times we had. And I just hope there will be more. Hopefully see you at shows and what not.
Brendan, I was always too afraid to tell you because I didn't want to scare you away, but I did/do love you. Maybe not as 'more than a friend', but more like a brother. You amazing and gorgeous, never change. Please.
Josh (how horrible am I for forgetting your last name :[ ),
No one knew about us, I'm sorry. And I'm sorry that your angry at me now for having a boyfriend. But I care about you a lot, and we promised to always stay friends, and I promised to teach you how to swim. You still need to get your shirt that I sewed you (CAUSE I'M WICKED INDIE) and pick up your robot that I glued together. You have the most gorgeous green eyes, and the most enjoyable piercings, and I hate that your angry at me right now. I wish I could explain, but I'm not sure if I can. I know we'll cross paths soon at the Palladium, I don't want to end up like one of your hundreds of ex's that you don't like. You said I was different, that you connected with me most of any girl you met. And the feeling is mutual.
Thank you for piercing my septum and holding my hand as I pierced my monroe. I'll always be thankful for that.
Joseph Michael Stulpin,
We have barely known eachother 2 months, and yet you are the love of my life. I love you with everything I have, and I know the feeling is mutual and your not going to go and break up with me or hurt me or cheat on me.
I still remember perfectly the day we met, everything about that day. Every single thing. I also remember thinking you didn't like me, and you were playing hard-to-get like crazy, and I'm not use to that.
I like breaking records with you, are cuddling up on the beach in the winter, or making you scrapbooks because I'm wicked poor and can't afford to buy you anything. I want to be with you forever. As dumb or childish or unrealistic as that may sound to others, they don't understand our feelings for eachother. I love you I love you I love you. I cannot express that enough. I'll always be there for you, baby. I need you. I'm listening to the cd you bought me right now.
Leo,
If it wasn't for you I would have never seen Alexisonfire. Thanks man. You're a really good person and over these past two months we've gotten close, and it's great. I just can't wait for the future to get closer and get to kow you better. You are genuinely a great person, thank you for being who you are.
Justin Pimental,
I miss you kid. We had a good summer, I love that you make Dani so happy. You really need to come down to my house with her soon and re-live what we use to do towards the end of our amazing summer.
Corey O'Connor,
I love you man. We will always have that Donna bond, and we will always talk about how you rode your bike all the way fom New Bedford and back to hang out with me the night of my birthday. Your the most amazing person ever, funniest person I've evr met. Seriously, no one could EVER live up to you. I love you so much. I want to be firends with you forever.
If I forgot you, and you want a letter written to you, I'd be happy to do so. Just tell me <3