and you could say my name like you knew my name
I knew what you had to say before you said it, but you've said it before. time and again.
I've heard it, reluctantly, and tucked it away, safe someplace I wouldnt see. not when I awake or fall asleep. not ever when I'm not looking.
and I never look.
I hated finding you everywhere I went when you were exactly what I didn't want to find. I hated your face so warped in this shape I've made for it. the faint smell of formaldahyde. and the way you speak of things you don't believe in, but things that I do. tossing them around so carelessly.
I hope, and think it is so, that you've found me to be a poor part of this ongoing argument, this eternal investigation. I will not bear good witness to what has taken place, and I find it to hard to let you learn your lessons through me. test theories. hypothesize. take me down one experiment at a time. time and again. It seems my reaction has been constant, has it not? my abilities exahusted. my feelings thouroughly drained. my heart disproved.
and it's all a figment of my mind or yours. it's none of it real.
I wish you'd hold this hand of mine, on that plane where I cried. on that day that you died. You'd say you could stay here. You'd say some things exist. You'd say some things stay the same. And you wouldn't go, you wouldn't let go. Time would never catch up, and the past would stay behind on the ground.
I've heard it, reluctantly, and tucked it away, safe someplace I wouldnt see. not when I awake or fall asleep. not ever when I'm not looking.
and I never look.
I hated finding you everywhere I went when you were exactly what I didn't want to find. I hated your face so warped in this shape I've made for it. the faint smell of formaldahyde. and the way you speak of things you don't believe in, but things that I do. tossing them around so carelessly.
I hope, and think it is so, that you've found me to be a poor part of this ongoing argument, this eternal investigation. I will not bear good witness to what has taken place, and I find it to hard to let you learn your lessons through me. test theories. hypothesize. take me down one experiment at a time. time and again. It seems my reaction has been constant, has it not? my abilities exahusted. my feelings thouroughly drained. my heart disproved.
and it's all a figment of my mind or yours. it's none of it real.
I wish you'd hold this hand of mine, on that plane where I cried. on that day that you died. You'd say you could stay here. You'd say some things exist. You'd say some things stay the same. And you wouldn't go, you wouldn't let go. Time would never catch up, and the past would stay behind on the ground.