probably totally random...and stupid
okay...this might be really long. and i am just in a mood...and i dont even know what kind of mood. but i am just going to write whatever comes into my head. just as a warning, the grammer/spelling/composition of this entry is going to be very very poor, i do not care.
so at the beginning of this year...i made myself a promise, that 2006 was going to be so different. better. 2005 was shit. and 2006 was going to be just awesome. and i decided that in order for it to be awesome, it had to start with me. I had to change myself in order to make the year better. so i told myself..."self, that glass is half full". and i started telling myself that over and over. anytime i started to look at something negative i was just like "hilary, look on the brightside" so i have been struggling to look on the brightside this year. and i have to say it has made me in such a good mood. but everything else is the same. and i am still wondering whether my friends are really my friends. because i can never tell. uhh idk? anyway...not what i wanted to talk about. those of you fortunate enough to read my last entry, and actually know what it was talking about!!! yay!!! i am totally over the jack asses in my life. (assES...yes both of them) i dont even care anymore what happened or why they do somethings they do...because i am over it. i am over them. i was thinking...and its not worth the trouble. its not worth the pain...because THEY are not worth it. in order to be worth it...they would have to treat me better. and waiting for someone who will treat me amazingly...is totally worth the wait. which reminds me of a song....
"though they may not believe it...there is nothing on earth...more worth the wait, worth the tears, worth the grief it brings you, worth the work, worth the years, worth the pain that stings you...
Only you choose your fate...if its worth the wait...than wait"
so yeah ik random. so i am feeling very green (organized...according to STEP profiles). here is my list.
* life is better
* life is not PERFECT
* i love english class right now because we are writing
* lately i have been drawing...or should i say doodling...because none of it looks wonderful...but it makes me happy
* "If a man answers, hang up" is like the best movie ever...next to "remember the titans"
* i straightened my hair today...and actually wore earrings...i felt pretty
* it is rare that i feel pretty
* it is 7:00 and i have not done my homework
* meredith is really sick. she better get better.
* a new Gilmore Girls in on TV right now...i love Gilmore Girls
* growing older sucks
* skittles is my new favorite candy
i am done. i cant waste anymore of your time.
Thank you for reading, hilary's lj.
have a great day!
so at the beginning of this year...i made myself a promise, that 2006 was going to be so different. better. 2005 was shit. and 2006 was going to be just awesome. and i decided that in order for it to be awesome, it had to start with me. I had to change myself in order to make the year better. so i told myself..."self, that glass is half full". and i started telling myself that over and over. anytime i started to look at something negative i was just like "hilary, look on the brightside" so i have been struggling to look on the brightside this year. and i have to say it has made me in such a good mood. but everything else is the same. and i am still wondering whether my friends are really my friends. because i can never tell. uhh idk? anyway...not what i wanted to talk about. those of you fortunate enough to read my last entry, and actually know what it was talking about!!! yay!!! i am totally over the jack asses in my life. (assES...yes both of them) i dont even care anymore what happened or why they do somethings they do...because i am over it. i am over them. i was thinking...and its not worth the trouble. its not worth the pain...because THEY are not worth it. in order to be worth it...they would have to treat me better. and waiting for someone who will treat me amazingly...is totally worth the wait. which reminds me of a song....
"though they may not believe it...there is nothing on earth...more worth the wait, worth the tears, worth the grief it brings you, worth the work, worth the years, worth the pain that stings you...
Only you choose your fate...if its worth the wait...than wait"
so yeah ik random. so i am feeling very green (organized...according to STEP profiles). here is my list.
* life is better
* life is not PERFECT
* i love english class right now because we are writing
* lately i have been drawing...or should i say doodling...because none of it looks wonderful...but it makes me happy
* "If a man answers, hang up" is like the best movie ever...next to "remember the titans"
* i straightened my hair today...and actually wore earrings...i felt pretty
* it is rare that i feel pretty
* it is 7:00 and i have not done my homework
* meredith is really sick. she better get better.
* a new Gilmore Girls in on TV right now...i love Gilmore Girls
* growing older sucks
* skittles is my new favorite candy
i am done. i cant waste anymore of your time.
Thank you for reading, hilary's lj.
have a great day!