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yesterday it snowed alot. it was a beautiful day bookended by sheer misery.
court yesterday morning was terrible. it's going to be so much worse than i thought. i don't feel like talking about it right now, but i'm scared.
then last night i drank too much jagermeister. and i vomitted. alot. i haven't done that in so long. i remember leaving erica and carolyn's, and i remember throwing up in the fresh snow 50 feet from the apartment. i remember the girl walking the other way that gave a friendly laugh as i stood double over. i remember wishing her a merry christmas. i don't remember anything after that for awhile. apparently i walked back alone through the snow. i remember being found clutching the toilet. i remember going back to the toilet later and melissa being in there, so i sat on the shower floor and vomitted down the drain for a very long time. it seemed like gallons of black sludge were forced out of my nose and mouth. apparently i got some in melissa's shoe. i'm still not sure how. she took it well. so much vomit.
i apologize for this entry.
what should i put on my christmas list?
court yesterday morning was terrible. it's going to be so much worse than i thought. i don't feel like talking about it right now, but i'm scared.
then last night i drank too much jagermeister. and i vomitted. alot. i haven't done that in so long. i remember leaving erica and carolyn's, and i remember throwing up in the fresh snow 50 feet from the apartment. i remember the girl walking the other way that gave a friendly laugh as i stood double over. i remember wishing her a merry christmas. i don't remember anything after that for awhile. apparently i walked back alone through the snow. i remember being found clutching the toilet. i remember going back to the toilet later and melissa being in there, so i sat on the shower floor and vomitted down the drain for a very long time. it seemed like gallons of black sludge were forced out of my nose and mouth. apparently i got some in melissa's shoe. i'm still not sure how. she took it well. so much vomit.
i apologize for this entry.
what should i put on my christmas list?