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Im sick of livejournal Im sick of xanga. I cant take it Im quitting. It seems that it causes me to get depressed easyier. I see my old friends from ga. Move on and...leave me behind. Xanga lets me stay in the past...and I think after 2 years...its time to move on.
It just hurts when you read about 2 of your best friends having these amazing lives and here I am...sitting on my butt. Ive screwed my life up so bad here in ms...I almost feel like theres no hope for ever getting that back. I made this reputation for myself that is so behind me. I was the bad kid, that turned her life around. But people never notice that now do they? No. They see all the bad and mistakes in people. It just makes me so sad. Because while there out doin stuff having a life. I cant do any of that. I cant even go to the mall. And wow! You wouldnt imagine how that can mess up your social life.
But I cant take it. I cant take this...its basically like torture.
I wanna move and just start over.
When I move Ill write again.
If...I move.
It just hurts when you read about 2 of your best friends having these amazing lives and here I am...sitting on my butt. Ive screwed my life up so bad here in ms...I almost feel like theres no hope for ever getting that back. I made this reputation for myself that is so behind me. I was the bad kid, that turned her life around. But people never notice that now do they? No. They see all the bad and mistakes in people. It just makes me so sad. Because while there out doin stuff having a life. I cant do any of that. I cant even go to the mall. And wow! You wouldnt imagine how that can mess up your social life.
But I cant take it. I cant take this...its basically like torture.
I wanna move and just start over.
When I move Ill write again.
If...I move.