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you know what..... im not mad at cha.....i think im sorta use to it.....u wernt even mean til the end really....u were just being dumb in general.....thats why i wasnt even goin to call......i could tell...i had this little felling that u were goin to be a bad drunk last night, so i said come over in the mourning and i will see u then....buuut noo CATHRAN...{not sure how to spell it} has to have me call her that night for what eva reason she really needed me to...{because she thought i had a gurl over}...which i told her what i was doing even before u were drunk....so then all the shit started to happen.......well kt u must see were i am coming from on this little issue we keep running into, u know i luv u, u know i want to be with u, well this shit really puts dampers on the way i feel about US....not u, but US.....now u said early today in ur journal entry that u fucked up.. well ya u did.... but not drinking ne more dosent seem like the answer to ur probs... because right there ur saying the prob is the alcohol, well that might be true, but heres the thing... ur not goin to go with out for to long... we know this...in a month or so i know it wont be that way... so why dont u work on the issue now and go out still and do whateva is going on...and try different things....like not drink so much liquor, that there will take alot of the anger out...if u drink beer ur less likey to get angry...second go out and talk to me early that day.. but thats it...u can call me the day after, im sorry but when u do this shit it kills my night... i was having a great night, and then for some reason i couldnt sleep...i have enough fun trying to get to sleep ne ways...now i really im not upset at u bout last night...i really think im gettin use to it...but i dont want it to keep happing....and if that takes u not being able to call, or come over when ur goin out then thats ok with me...cus i dont like where that is taking us.... i dont think u do either...so lets work on this little issue we got on our hands, and see what we can make of it before we get rid of it all in general......i love ya gurl...i will call u latta tonight....dont worry....o and for the record this is the last im talking about last night with ya.......i dont want to talk about it latta...just work on it here in the future for me...luv ya