yeah
so im so confused about my life right now. i dont know what to do about study abroad. i dont know what i want to do with my life. i have trouble getting my work done. usually im pretty happy, but i really want to see marissa. i don't really know what the best way to deal with the situation is, we talk all the time, and i know that i love her, but occassionally the situation makes it hard. i want to have a long relationship and see where it goes but it can be hard from this distance, but i feel like there is something there and it is really worth seeing. it would be easier if i knew what i wanted to do with my life. alright, enough writing, maybe i'll write in my real journal.