[fic] Dearest Friend

[ofolivesnginger]

Author ofolivesnginger
Fandom: EXO
Pairing: Kris/Luhan, Sehun/Luhan
Rating: NC17
Words: 5,524
Warnings: Death, sensitive subject matters
Summary: Listen to the old man sitting on the park bench.

a/n: have i broken my promise to never break krishan? i must ask you to decide for yourselves, gentle friends. this is not the ideal holiday present, but alas, winter

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[ofolivesnginger]

“Twenty years is a long time.”

i think in the end you'd be right if you said yifan felt more for luhan than she did him. but twenty years is a long time, and it's impossible for any two cold people who'd managed to stick it out THIS LONG with 2 kids not to feel anything towards e/o. 20 years brewed something alright. to me the moment yifan wrote his answer in her hand, the fact that she choked up means she did care, and she did feel, whatever that feeling was. plus they end clutching their hands together. yeah, twenty years is a long time BUT DEFINITELY NOT LONG ENOUGH. but that's why it ends on the birth of a third child...a child who is half of the original luhan, and half the luhan she wish she'd been in some fantasy, come together into the reality of a child WHO HAPPENS to carry the name of both the real father, wu shixun, and also her very important husband, wu yifan. in a sense this child belongs to all three of them collectively, and is more complete than any of her other children had been........

i dont even feel like i wrote this?????? like whoa now that i dissect everything this sounds way too layered for my brain...so much of this thought process must have been unconscious then i guess. thank you S F MUCH for writing that??? always amazingly mind opening to read your own stuff thru the eyes of someone else ;;W;;; i really do think in another lifetime luhan would have properly SEEN yifan and even fallen in LOVE with his simplicity. like you said, they miss each other, but they also missed each other all these years...((iM DEAD)) but as it is. her family has dictated her life...the butterfly should have flown out the window when she had the chance...but instead she brought the light in and looked her future in the face and resigned herself to vows in the attic...im so done oh god this is positively the most painful thing i have written i am so sorry

(((THANK U AGAIN BB!!!!!! <3 for revisiting this angst <3 i know you hate me but i love you <3)))