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im stressed out to no end.
I have worked my ass off this entire year and of course its like my mom doesnt even give a shit about it.
fuck her, im proud of myself. i could just go out and become a crack addict but am i? no.
its like she gets all pissed whenever i want to go out and have fun. my dad understand but my mom just sucks.
i wouldnt have even been able to go to see lil wayne if my mom had her way. thank God i have a dad whos pretty awesome.
my dad is so worried about me, i can hear it in his voice.
i was fighting on the phone the other day and he straight up was like "is someone threatning you?" and im like no dad calm down.
its like with him, he actually worries about me. he cares about what im feeling. with my mom she doesnt care about what i think. she stresses me out so much with school and the ACT like thats all that should be important in my life. i dont know how to explain it.
the ACT is going to suck. for the second time. i got a shitty score last time and i wouldnt doubt im going to get another one.
im horrible at taking tests. thats all there is to it.
yesterday i got a sweet speeding ticket right before school because i was late. you know that part on 40th street where it goes from like 150 to 25 out of nowhere? right there. i mean i was only going a 34 in a 25 and thats not bad but still, it bugs me that i got a ticket. the cop was really nice about it too. like he was all "dont cry its not that bad! have a nice day!"
so i called my dad crying like "i got a ticket!!" and he was so cool about it. he just said "calm down, pull yourself together and we will deal with it. its okay." so that made me feel 93282 times better. i still dont know what my mom thinks about it. i havent seen her in the past 24 hours.
ive been sleeping constantly. for the past two days ive went to sleep around five and woken up the next day at five.
i dont know what my problem is. i suck.
+ im moving out of my house of 14 years. thats really getting to me now. i have no furniture in my living room. it freaks me out.
ugh, im just so stressed out.
moooom is home. later
I have worked my ass off this entire year and of course its like my mom doesnt even give a shit about it.
fuck her, im proud of myself. i could just go out and become a crack addict but am i? no.
its like she gets all pissed whenever i want to go out and have fun. my dad understand but my mom just sucks.
i wouldnt have even been able to go to see lil wayne if my mom had her way. thank God i have a dad whos pretty awesome.
my dad is so worried about me, i can hear it in his voice.
i was fighting on the phone the other day and he straight up was like "is someone threatning you?" and im like no dad calm down.
its like with him, he actually worries about me. he cares about what im feeling. with my mom she doesnt care about what i think. she stresses me out so much with school and the ACT like thats all that should be important in my life. i dont know how to explain it.
the ACT is going to suck. for the second time. i got a shitty score last time and i wouldnt doubt im going to get another one.
im horrible at taking tests. thats all there is to it.
yesterday i got a sweet speeding ticket right before school because i was late. you know that part on 40th street where it goes from like 150 to 25 out of nowhere? right there. i mean i was only going a 34 in a 25 and thats not bad but still, it bugs me that i got a ticket. the cop was really nice about it too. like he was all "dont cry its not that bad! have a nice day!"
so i called my dad crying like "i got a ticket!!" and he was so cool about it. he just said "calm down, pull yourself together and we will deal with it. its okay." so that made me feel 93282 times better. i still dont know what my mom thinks about it. i havent seen her in the past 24 hours.
ive been sleeping constantly. for the past two days ive went to sleep around five and woken up the next day at five.
i dont know what my problem is. i suck.
+ im moving out of my house of 14 years. thats really getting to me now. i have no furniture in my living room. it freaks me out.
ugh, im just so stressed out.
moooom is home. later