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Slicing
Pleasure or attention?
That is the question that we all ask right? Oh you sliced your wrists? why? why didn't you just kill your self? wouldn;t that have been easier? Or theres the people that are like oh oh you only do that for attention and so on. But we all would like to know why some times people who live a happy life do it.
There are the two kind of cutters, i know this sounds weird.. buit sadly it's true. There are the ones who do it, cause it feel great.. amazing lets thier pain out... and they don't go around boasting on xanga, or AIM saying i cut myself i cut myself boohoo pitty me.. NO they keep it to themselves, they cover it up.. they make you think they never did suck things.. then there are the kind that post pictures like that on thier pages, and journals, AIMS and they have never even done it at all.. just saying they have for attention, and then you have the people who show it off.. letting people see it. I mean , that is a sign right then and there it is for attention. Like in some cases, it makes me fucking sick Just to know people would do such a stupid thing to get people to pity them.. then agan at the same time i feel sorry for the ones who don't want to do it.. but feel as if tey have too.. i have known and talked to many people who have doen this.. and all the same, they didnt feel like they had a choice.. if they didn't do it.. they would feel endless pain, and i couldn't help but want to help them.. knwoing i oculnt . I just had a friend who passes away, he jumped off a cliff.. or so i'm told from his family, he had done so after finding out his girlfirned had done it..and she had done it cause her friend had.. now.. to me it sounds like it can go on forever, one person killing themselves after another, more people slicing, hanging, multalating thier bodies, all for the sake of happiness? i don't know, i don't think anyone will ever know..it's real sad but true.
I love brian dugan with all my heart.
Myyy new hair cut
