i cant believe you dragged me down again

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i fucking hate being anemic. its blows they called me three weeks in advance to have me give blood but yet again have a low hematocit percent. and people wonder why im so god damn cold all the time. and now i can barley type with these stupid band ads on my fingures cause they tested me so much. basterds.

today was senior breakfast. it was ok nothing to really brag about. i dont know why but a lot of people took pictures of me. i hate getting pictures taken oh well. went over things that i really dont care about so it was pretty much waste of time. i didnt have classes after it so it was ok. it seems to be happening a lot faster then i though it would. the whole leaveing school. still dont know how shit is going to be when everything is over. i just hope i dont regret anything.

its hard not to think about everything that has happend and everything that is going to happen. like when you think back to things and wish you did things differently how things now would be so different. i wonder if i didnt fuck up everything i once had and did would my life still be the same or would if be different? and if it would be different would if be anything better then this? just something to think about.