Lots on my mind...
So I have lots to say.. Yesterday was a day that I thought would be much more stressful then what it was. Of course you all know that we had to be at the hospital for MJ's surgery at 10. We got there and sat in the waiting room for about an hour before they called her back. While sitting there she had her head laying on my shoulder and every time I looked down I could not help but to notice how absolutely beautiful she is and how I am so lucky to have her love me. When we went back the pretty much made her strip down to nothing but a gown... Then the lady started her IV and took blood. I waited in the hall for this cause I am not all into watching someone hurt her. They got that taken care of and my poor baby started getting sick to her stomach cause she was so nervous. I was feeling uneasy but did not want to show it. I knew I had to be strong. After being back there the surgeon came back to speak with us and to tell me the procedure would only take 30-45mins. He said the room would be ready soon... Here is where I start getting very nervous. After waiting about an hour the anthesologist comes in to give MJ her "coctail" and a few other drugs in her IV. this is when I knew it was almost time for her to go back. She left to go get someone else, but then ended up coming back to get her. I walked holding her hand all the way to the double doors. This is as far as I could go. I kisssed her and told her I would see her soon and then watched as they wheeled her down the hall and the door shut. I ran to the car to put her clothes and our jackets but came right back in. I saw Mike walk back tot he operating room at like 1:00 so I figured they were starting.. So 2:00 rolls by and I start panicing and getting nervous. I was thinking something happened or that it was worse then we thought. I started to prepare my self for the worse possibility. finally at around 2:30 mike comes out to tell me everything went ok and that they just got a late start. Good cause I was so nervous. Then he told me it would be a few hours til I got to see her cause they had to get her private room ready.. Yep thats right MJ told them she was gonna sign out AMA if I could not stay at night so they gave her a private room and Mike wrote it in his orders that I get to stay.. Yay!! Well since i was releived I decided to try and take a littl nap. I slept for a few until opera came on... I then sat there watching my watch... Finally around 4:45 they told me I could go up to her unit...YAY!!! I pretty much speed walk up there to find out she is not there!*starts to worry* So I sit out in front of the unit waiting some more.I waited until about 5:15 and then I saw my baby being pushed down the hall.. Finally! I reach for her and told her I loved her. The nurse asked me to give her a few minutes to get her in her room... About 5 mins past and I finally got to see her. I gave her kisses and hugs and made sure she did not need much. Around 7 I went to get us something to eat at burger king since neither one of us had eaten or had anything to drink since midnight the night before. I figured if she had to fast I was to! She ate better thn what I thought she would. I figured she would be very sleepy and not up to eating. After supper the nurse brought in some wash clothes and a towel so that I could wash her up and try to get the iodine off her. We got that taken car of and my baby started falling a sleep. Her shoulder was hurting so I sat there massaging it an thinking. I could not beleive that such a great person has so much happening to her. I looked at her laying there so innocent looking knowing she had to be in pain. I did anything and everything I could to keep her comfy. Everytime she needed water or ice I would get it. When he had to go potty I unplugged her IV and rolled it in the bathoom for her.I still felt like I could do more. I slept very lightly for a few hours in a chair right beside her bed holding her hand. At this point I knew everything would be okay. I would never let anything happen to her. She is the love of my life and the more we go through the more and more I fall in love. If she had to stay in there longer you bet your ass I would be right there. I am glad to have her home. I can take better care of her and know she will feel better in our house. I love that she lets me take car of her.. MJ, I promise you that you will never go through ANYTHING alone. I love you and enjoy aing care of you. You are what keeps me going.. Well I guess I am done telling my adventure. I just wanted to have it for my memories.. Off to take a shower and get this nasty hospitil smell off me. LATER!