confused
I'm really confused. I don't really know what's going on. I have this gut feeling that something else is going on. something that she's not telling me. since we've been back together.. things are different.. I feel like all our relationship is about is the physical aspect. I feel that there is no emotion there. I'm glad that I'm comfortable enough with her to have a physical relationship. I'm glad that she's comfortable with me.
She tells me she loves me. and I want to believe her. but it's hard. after what she's done. after what i know she's told her.
I'm really scared. and I have this feeling in me that she's going to leave me. again.
at first, i woke up the happiest person.. but lately.. i wake up wanting to cry. that may just be my depression coming back.. but i don't know. i don't know how to tell her any of this. i don't know how to tell anyone any of this. I'm pretty sure if i tell someone they'll tell me that if i don't have trust, then maybe it's not right. that maybe i shouldn't be with her right now. I just don't know anymore.