the problem with life always leads back to money.
I'm feeling a bit way way down right now on the realm of life. I've got good friends and a nice apartment, and an awesome lady who loves the shit out of me, and a new motorcycle. Unfortunately , I feel that every corner I turn there is a money issue ready to smack me in the face. I work and yet because of the apartment and the motorcycle, I don't have any money. I havent had enough money to put food on my plate. I totally hate banks and am uncapable of using them, it seems like after every week i have negative money in my account . I've figured the answer to that though and I'm gonna take all the money out that i'm not using for bills and split it up in a daily allowance. I had a bit of a break down last night because on top of not having enough money apparently i owe Nstar gas $886 dollars. This apparently is because the 3 months after moving out of my last apartment did not get paid. I haven't had enough money to eat daily, I certainly don't have enough money to pay these fuckers off for months of gas at an apartment that I wasn't even still living at. I also know for a fact that the people that are at that apartment right now, have worse off money problems than me and they just had their windows broken in because someone decided to start a fight at their house. They can't afford to pay it either. What am I supposed to do? I could pay 5 dollars a month to Nstar and have this issue paid of fifteen years from now, but it is it my responsibility? My parents told me that if i studied they would pay for me to take the tests to get certified enough to get a helpdesk corporate job. Is this what I have to do? Am I going to have to cut my hair and take out my piercings so that I can work in a grown up environment and wair a suit to work, and stare at a computer all day. These are things that I don't really want to do, but I dont want to be in debt and be a burden to those around me. Part of me says that I would have weekends off and paid vacations and my money problems would go away. But is it worth it, and do money problems really go away unless you distance yourself from things that involve money. Everything involves money and even if you are traveling around and being a tramp you are still spange-ing and using other people's money that they worked for, and you are still paying with green money for booze and what not...so your still a capitalist. I could stay at the job I'm at and start dumpstering again. But those dumpsters are there for people that aren't lucky enough to be able to have a job or live in a nice apartment, or have a motorcycle. I'd feal really bad putting someone else out so that i can have my cake and eat it to. Do you really need to only look out for number 1. I wonder how all these kids go to college and have cars and go out all the time, but I realize that they live with theyr parents and they are spoiled brats who will never have an issue asking their parents for money to pay for these things. My head is flying in so many directions right now. I know that these are basic questions and problems that everyone deals with, and will have to deal with as long as we are alive, but does anyone have any advice?? I'm stumped.