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Last night was just a really weird/emotional night. I don’t ever want anything like that to happen again cuz it just drains all my energy. I was up till like 3:30 talking to Shasta about everything. I think we got a lot out and now I know that there was more to this than I thought. I’m glad we can talk to each other again. It feels so much better. I don’t like being upset/mad and I don’t like people being upset/mad with me. I really hope there isn’t a day where we throw our friendship away for good. That would just suck.
I fell asleep around 4, had the weirdest dreams, and woke up 7:30 feeling so confused. I thought it was a school day, and I couldn’t remember if I was supposed to get up at 6 or 7...i cant explain it. It was a weird ass feeling. But I knocked on the bathroom door cuz my dad was in the shower and I told him “I NEED TO GET MY TOOTHBRUSH !!!” and he was like why? I said I needed to hurry up and get ready cuz I was late. He told me it was only Sunday and I had to think about it before I realized it was. I think Im still kinda fucked up from everything. My head just isn’t working right. I went back to sleep till about 11. I woke up and my mom asked what was wrong and I cried.
I just feel really weird today. Kinda like I got beat up really bad and I’m recovering. I have no energy. Nothing’s funny to me. I kinda just want to be alone. I want to go to church by myself. I don’t know.
I feel dead.
I fell asleep around 4, had the weirdest dreams, and woke up 7:30 feeling so confused. I thought it was a school day, and I couldn’t remember if I was supposed to get up at 6 or 7...i cant explain it. It was a weird ass feeling. But I knocked on the bathroom door cuz my dad was in the shower and I told him “I NEED TO GET MY TOOTHBRUSH !!!” and he was like why? I said I needed to hurry up and get ready cuz I was late. He told me it was only Sunday and I had to think about it before I realized it was. I think Im still kinda fucked up from everything. My head just isn’t working right. I went back to sleep till about 11. I woke up and my mom asked what was wrong and I cried.
I just feel really weird today. Kinda like I got beat up really bad and I’m recovering. I have no energy. Nothing’s funny to me. I kinda just want to be alone. I want to go to church by myself. I don’t know.
I feel dead.