rage in the cage
The accident has been deemed my fault. I have been frustrated and lashing out at everyone around me. I know that isn't the best way to deal with things, but it's driving me crazy how she can get away with it. I admit that some of it is my fault, but really? She hit me. You can't get around that fact. She hit me when I was way into my turn, and should have seen me.
I get so frustrated by these things. I think of what I can change and how I could have gotten out of this. Then I try to add this all up karmically and I wonder if I deserve it for doing things like kicking people off their cell phones or just being sour when I don't have the energy to be nice, or if I deserve to be let free because of whatever skin ailment I've been struck with this week, or... there are so many variables. I can only have influence over one. I can't let it go, but I can try my best to make it not hurt so much.
I get so frustrated by these things. I think of what I can change and how I could have gotten out of this. Then I try to add this all up karmically and I wonder if I deserve it for doing things like kicking people off their cell phones or just being sour when I don't have the energy to be nice, or if I deserve to be let free because of whatever skin ailment I've been struck with this week, or... there are so many variables. I can only have influence over one. I can't let it go, but I can try my best to make it not hurt so much.