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I'm concentrating a lot of my attention on a boy I like, which surprisingly helps my mood. It's distracting and while I shouldn't divert my attention from what's been troubling me, I'm going to. The end.
I've been a bundle of ridiculous. Misplacing a lot of anger. I have a feeling people feel like they have to walk around eggshells around me. I will stop. I will stop. I will stop. I will not make excuses for myself because I feel as though I already am. I'd rather be miserable in the morning and happy during the day than happy in the morning only to nosedive in the evening. I don't wake up particularly early so I'm left with my shitty emotions at night for a while.
There are times when I feel better, and times when I feel worse, but I hear words repeated in my head over and over like a curse.
I hate being wrong and it kills me that I have been.
I've been a bundle of ridiculous. Misplacing a lot of anger. I have a feeling people feel like they have to walk around eggshells around me. I will stop. I will stop. I will stop. I will not make excuses for myself because I feel as though I already am. I'd rather be miserable in the morning and happy during the day than happy in the morning only to nosedive in the evening. I don't wake up particularly early so I'm left with my shitty emotions at night for a while.
There are times when I feel better, and times when I feel worse, but I hear words repeated in my head over and over like a curse.
I hate being wrong and it kills me that I have been.