a few thoughts before a journey into my city.
(my city being new york city.)
lately my emotional state has been less than stellar. for a number of reasons, I've had trouble getting out of bed, doing things I once loved to do, even talking to my own mother without feeling awkward. I know, I sound like a Zoloft commercial, but I haven't experienced this type of ennui with life before. I don't know what type of depression this is. The phrase "adult" comes to mind, and I guess I am starting to become one. I don't know how much I like it. I've been listening to sad songs on repeat. I sound so lame. Here's why.
I have a bunch to be grateful for. This summer has definitely been great for me. There are just a few stupid mental blocks I have to break through in order to be happy. And they're made of steel. It's so stupid but I know I can do this. I know I can. I just need to not lose myself. That shouldn't be too hard right?
off to manhattan. busy day today. wish me luck.
(I've been dying to use ennui in a sentence. is that pretentious? ...yeah, probably.)
lately my emotional state has been less than stellar. for a number of reasons, I've had trouble getting out of bed, doing things I once loved to do, even talking to my own mother without feeling awkward. I know, I sound like a Zoloft commercial, but I haven't experienced this type of ennui with life before. I don't know what type of depression this is. The phrase "adult" comes to mind, and I guess I am starting to become one. I don't know how much I like it. I've been listening to sad songs on repeat. I sound so lame. Here's why.
I have a bunch to be grateful for. This summer has definitely been great for me. There are just a few stupid mental blocks I have to break through in order to be happy. And they're made of steel. It's so stupid but I know I can do this. I know I can. I just need to not lose myself. That shouldn't be too hard right?
off to manhattan. busy day today. wish me luck.
(I've been dying to use ennui in a sentence. is that pretentious? ...yeah, probably.)