// I Wish This Hadn't Happened
So, since last time I wrote, me and him were okay. Fights on and off, etc etc. Now this sucks. I broke up with him cause I was really upset, then my Mom came down after I hung up, and we talked, and she sorta got all "this is over!".
So we broke up. I'm not allowed to see him. He's "18".
I seriously feel so horrible. This is worse then anything. He's mad at me. He's hurt. He doesn't care. I don't know. I feel nothing from him. And it's worse then pain. And I seriously don't know what to fucking do. How can I not be able to see him???? We barely saw each other as it was. And of course I ruined that. Just like everything else.
I love him. I always will. And I will always be here waiting. There is no one else for me.
God, this fucking kills.
So we broke up. I'm not allowed to see him. He's "18".
I seriously feel so horrible. This is worse then anything. He's mad at me. He's hurt. He doesn't care. I don't know. I feel nothing from him. And it's worse then pain. And I seriously don't know what to fucking do. How can I not be able to see him???? We barely saw each other as it was. And of course I ruined that. Just like everything else.
I love him. I always will. And I will always be here waiting. There is no one else for me.
God, this fucking kills.