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things that are keeping me up right now:
-listening to alison krauss in the most pleasantly hurtful way.
-im excited to go home on tuesday. i am, however, already anxious about the 5 days flying by and feeling like i barely saw anyone i actually wanted to.
-there are times that i have so many contradicting feelings about me and michael's relationship that i think, literally, that i may burst. with happiness. and with fear. and with confusion. and with so many things. too many things.
-im going back to therapy next tuesday. it can't come soon enough.
-i dont understand so many parts of myself right now. why don't i think im able to talk about it with michael.
-i'm tired of being vilified by my family. it's how it's always been and im afraid it's how it's always going to be.
-art. my art! oh my art, my art, my art. the magic is back. and it's given me wings.
-so many people--too many people--in my life that i love i haven't spoken to. ari. genna. ruth. cara. ilana. even eden and lindsay. i miss so much.
-why couldn't i let go at mr. black on friday? im ready to let go.
-i need toni morrison's new book!
-i need a dialogue in smithtown. stat.
goodnight.
-listening to alison krauss in the most pleasantly hurtful way.
-im excited to go home on tuesday. i am, however, already anxious about the 5 days flying by and feeling like i barely saw anyone i actually wanted to.
-there are times that i have so many contradicting feelings about me and michael's relationship that i think, literally, that i may burst. with happiness. and with fear. and with confusion. and with so many things. too many things.
-im going back to therapy next tuesday. it can't come soon enough.
-i dont understand so many parts of myself right now. why don't i think im able to talk about it with michael.
-i'm tired of being vilified by my family. it's how it's always been and im afraid it's how it's always going to be.
-art. my art! oh my art, my art, my art. the magic is back. and it's given me wings.
-so many people--too many people--in my life that i love i haven't spoken to. ari. genna. ruth. cara. ilana. even eden and lindsay. i miss so much.
-why couldn't i let go at mr. black on friday? im ready to let go.
-i need toni morrison's new book!
-i need a dialogue in smithtown. stat.
goodnight.