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a list, because the alternative seems too daunting
-today was one of those days that felt like being inside sadness. like i would never know anything that wasn't this feeling.
-do other people have those days?
-i'm listening to the cinematic orchestra over and over and over again.
-21 really does feel different. it really does.
-this summer is a farce. purposeless, directionless, money-less, man-less, and expendable.
-despite the fact that I always tell myself otherwise, the summer is always about ruminating on future art projects rather than actually doing them. text, stencils, splashes, ghosts, teeth, polymer, giant paintings. again.
-i don't need more online friends. i don't need more walls. i'm tired of looking at screens instead of faces.
-my therapist thinks that all i want is a man to make me happy. what he doesnt know is that the prospect of a relationship makes me the opposite of happy.
-whats the opposite of happy?
-i need more of last night to happen. kt, alexis, and i, and me finally realizing that i can talk to men without having a panic attack.
-oh, also, KT IS BACK.
-i hope ari realizes how many things she has.
-how do i fill my days?
-i wish i had more things to list.
-i wish it was easier.
-today was one of those days that felt like being inside sadness. like i would never know anything that wasn't this feeling.
-do other people have those days?
-i'm listening to the cinematic orchestra over and over and over again.
-21 really does feel different. it really does.
-this summer is a farce. purposeless, directionless, money-less, man-less, and expendable.
-despite the fact that I always tell myself otherwise, the summer is always about ruminating on future art projects rather than actually doing them. text, stencils, splashes, ghosts, teeth, polymer, giant paintings. again.
-i don't need more online friends. i don't need more walls. i'm tired of looking at screens instead of faces.
-my therapist thinks that all i want is a man to make me happy. what he doesnt know is that the prospect of a relationship makes me the opposite of happy.
-whats the opposite of happy?
-i need more of last night to happen. kt, alexis, and i, and me finally realizing that i can talk to men without having a panic attack.
-oh, also, KT IS BACK.
-i hope ari realizes how many things she has.
-how do i fill my days?
-i wish i had more things to list.
-i wish it was easier.