Echoes
I suspect I have been suppressing some very intense emotions of late. At least this is what my speculation has led me to believe. Subconscious suppression. -nods- This is probably the source of my random bouts of anxiety or panic, the cause of my weird dreams of late and also the reason I sometimes feel strangely excited without having a definable reason for it.
I think there is definitely some crazy emotional shit going on in my head which I don't seem to feel too pressed to examine closely. This is singular for me as in the past I've demonstrated an overwhelming urge to analyze every nuance of my thoughts and emotions, even extending to others.
I don't know how I feel about this, if it's bad or neutral or maybe even good, or whether I care about it or just find it curious. And that's weird too. I always know how I feel about something.
But no matter how hard I try to pick this apart, when I can move myself to, I can't pinpoint reasons or whys or wherefores in regards to this. I just know my body or hormones or brain chemistry, whatever, is fitfully reacting to something. What a weird, fuzzy, vague sensation. Maybe weird dreams are resulting too, or maybe not.
Maybe weird dreams are a constant variable and aren't an effect of this stuff lately. Ugh, it's like trying to shake my head of something woolly and thick.
My fortune cookie says: You can be trusted to keep a secret.
My lucky numbers are: 8, 14, 26, 27, 46, 14
I think there is definitely some crazy emotional shit going on in my head which I don't seem to feel too pressed to examine closely. This is singular for me as in the past I've demonstrated an overwhelming urge to analyze every nuance of my thoughts and emotions, even extending to others.
I don't know how I feel about this, if it's bad or neutral or maybe even good, or whether I care about it or just find it curious. And that's weird too. I always know how I feel about something.
But no matter how hard I try to pick this apart, when I can move myself to, I can't pinpoint reasons or whys or wherefores in regards to this. I just know my body or hormones or brain chemistry, whatever, is fitfully reacting to something. What a weird, fuzzy, vague sensation. Maybe weird dreams are resulting too, or maybe not.
Maybe weird dreams are a constant variable and aren't an effect of this stuff lately. Ugh, it's like trying to shake my head of something woolly and thick.
My fortune cookie says: You can be trusted to keep a secret.
My lucky numbers are: 8, 14, 26, 27, 46, 14