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damn, my parents just LOVE making me feel like shit! i swear, i cant live in this house another day with out hearing my dad say "ill be surprised if you even get into college" or my mom sayin "your not going anywhere". like tonight, i needed to get outta the house sooooo bad, just to get away from all this bullshit. so christine comes and picks me up, but my mom is outside with me waiting for her, and trying to coax me into staying home. at this point my dad has already left the house and is god only knows where.i know they claim they 'care' bout me, but if they do, they have a pretty odd way of showing it. so anyways. i didnt go to school the past 2 days, havent gotten much sleep. i went to the mall wit nikki the other night. sooooo fun haha. damn, all my friends have been like abandoning me, cept nikki and christine. :( i need new friends. i need to stop spending my money too. i buy all this shit all the time, and most of the time its not even for me. like ill buy my friends shit all the time. the other night i spent almost $100 at Ecko at the mall for this kid i really like, and im debating wether or not i want to give it to him cuz i dont even know if he likes me too...hes not even my fuckin boyfriend and im buyin him expensive shit. i need to smarten up sometimes. i surprise myself even wit the stupid shit i do. i really need to get my life straightened out again, and i really need *him* here for me to just talk to, and let it all out, but hes never around for me to talk to. :( o well..i think ive bitched and complained enough here. i cant wait to see all the gay and bullshit comments i get on this one, tellin me to "shut the fuck up" cuz i complain too much about myself. have fun guys :)