been a while
With marianne. Lovin' it. Trying to keep my head up and stay ahead of the stupid past attitude. Not so much, my ex's or w/e but the idea it won't last. I have faith in myself and marianne but odds are against us. It'd be nice to be with her, shes nice, kind, awesome, fun, likes me for me and we get along amazingly, but. Our paths, much seperate. I have to make my way back into school and she is going to some premo-art place. Money is not my issue, and probably not hers either but i have to keep my head out of cloud nine. I can't set myself up to get hurt like i did with vickie. I don't compare marianne to her or expect things to end but like i said, i just don't wanna fall to far into something and have it hurt me that bad or even worse. I'm ready to dive into another serious relationship but there are so many questions to marianne. Shes still so young, she has yet to go to college, turn 18, turn 21, she hasn't had many relationships, like, theres just so much unknown. But, at the same time i guess, any relationship i get into will always have lots of unknown questions to it. THings that remain unanswered until the time is right or simply go unanswered because things end or people move on. Shes worth getting hurt but I just don't wanna go through that again. A more interesting thought: what if i dive in deep and never get hurt?