So sick and tired

[odoylerulz]

Its like each day is a bounce back and forth between bullshit and things making sense. Sometimes i just wish people would just let me fucking disappear and leave me alone. Its so weird, i want to have people around so bad, i want to be loved and appreciated but at the same time, i'm just so fed up with all the bullshit. All the indecisive, contradictive, immature, lying, deceptive crap. I'm so close to just saying I quit. But as always i'm sure God will step in and tell me "no." Anytime i want to stop he always steps in and kind of in a way saps me in the back of the head, looks down at me like a owner disciplining their dog and points forward telling me to move along. I love the gift and blessings in my life but at the same time, i'm so fed up with the abuse. The constant moving from one person to the next and getting left behind.
Maybe i'll find someone to love me.
Then again
Maybe santa clause will come this year.