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It's not possible for me to explain why and remain anonymous, but my ability to be alone at night has been severely curtailed. And I don't especially like it. Late nights are MY time. I feel disconnected, and I was already down. And all this coincides with the natural ebb and flow of friends on LJ disappearing or leaving. It's like the last four months here; coming out, making discoveries about myself, meeting supportive friends I'd never known before, and falling in love... It's like none of it happened. And some losses cut deeper than others.
I never meant to be all emo. It's just that I feel a little alone, and I don't quite have my defenses up enough to be able to not care.
I never meant to be all emo. It's just that I feel a little alone, and I don't quite have my defenses up enough to be able to not care.