about last night's Ambien Diatribes
One of the reasons I write those particular Ambien-fueled posts is for the sake of reading them the next day because they tend to veer off somewhere in the middle, the longer ones especially, to things I don't recall writing and am frequently surprised I had to say.
Last night was one of them. There are a couple of things I don't even know what I meant and I wish I did. I don't know what I meant by "help me clean what I can" or "I probably wrote that on a tree somewhere." But though I don't remember writing these things, they always resonate with me. It's a little like having an email conversation with my subconscious.
I also didn't know that I forgive my other side for the things he's done in the past. That was really nice to read.
I have to tell you, I mean, I know I'm taking Ambien because I can't sleep, but the things I learn from taking it are really sort of amazing to me and I'd be sorry to let that go. It's not that I'm addicted to the drug, I'm addicted to what I discover while on it.
Also, for the record, I actually did a search and "love" is NOT the most common word in my journal (it's 21st), but IS the most common word that isn't a word like "I," "to," "the," "that," etc. So, I feel justified in saying it's the most common word of any import in my journal. :) 121 times so far (122 now, I suppose), in case you're curious.
Last night was one of them. There are a couple of things I don't even know what I meant and I wish I did. I don't know what I meant by "help me clean what I can" or "I probably wrote that on a tree somewhere." But though I don't remember writing these things, they always resonate with me. It's a little like having an email conversation with my subconscious.
I also didn't know that I forgive my other side for the things he's done in the past. That was really nice to read.
I have to tell you, I mean, I know I'm taking Ambien because I can't sleep, but the things I learn from taking it are really sort of amazing to me and I'd be sorry to let that go. It's not that I'm addicted to the drug, I'm addicted to what I discover while on it.
Also, for the record, I actually did a search and "love" is NOT the most common word in my journal (it's 21st), but IS the most common word that isn't a word like "I," "to," "the," "that," etc. So, I feel justified in saying it's the most common word of any import in my journal. :) 121 times so far (122 now, I suppose), in case you're curious.