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I want to inject novocain into the area that feelings of want or void come from.
I'm pretty sure it's not you're heart because that just pumps blood, something tells me it's a part of your brain and you'd have to drill a hole in my skull to do so.
I'm just kinda tired of feeling.
Not any certain feeling, but maybe just all together.
To feel nothing.
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My bed just felt so big, not nearly as big as the void that was still there, but it was haunting.
I miss the filler, not the person.
Maybe I'm too picky, but I'm tired of fillers.
Tired of settling for something that doesn't feel completely right.
To think I have viberance when I feel so hollow, it's amazing to me to think what truely feeling alive would feel like.
Maybe you never do once you're jaded, and maybe everyone else in the world knows exactly how I feel and they have never really admitted it to anyone, not even themselves.
Maybe I don't even deserve what I want.
I build myself up sometimes only to watch myself fall.
But how I hate the feeling of breathing with broken ribs.
I'm pretty sure it's not you're heart because that just pumps blood, something tells me it's a part of your brain and you'd have to drill a hole in my skull to do so.
I'm just kinda tired of feeling.
Not any certain feeling, but maybe just all together.
To feel nothing.
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My bed just felt so big, not nearly as big as the void that was still there, but it was haunting.
I miss the filler, not the person.
Maybe I'm too picky, but I'm tired of fillers.
Tired of settling for something that doesn't feel completely right.
To think I have viberance when I feel so hollow, it's amazing to me to think what truely feeling alive would feel like.
Maybe you never do once you're jaded, and maybe everyone else in the world knows exactly how I feel and they have never really admitted it to anyone, not even themselves.
Maybe I don't even deserve what I want.
I build myself up sometimes only to watch myself fall.
But how I hate the feeling of breathing with broken ribs.