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      I didn't get to bed until 5:30am yesterday because of my whole family drama with mom. I got four hours for sleep and woke up with the worst headache from crying. I never cry, when I do, it kicks my ass. I hate it. I then took a final. I studied for it this morning while I was waking up. I think I may have done better than I expected. I walked into the class and the kids I always talked with in class were like "Damn Morgan, you look so tired." That's when you know you look rough lol, I wore my pjs to school. I went to dad's after school and slept. After I woke up I cleaned my room and my dad came in there. He had had a few beers and was kinda tipsy, and I was singing to Jewel. So he sat on my bed and told me to sing for him so I did. He kinda got on my nerves so I went to Wal Mart to get the new Jewel cd, I wasn't gone but for a half hour, but when I got home he was more than a little drunk. He didn't even hear me come in because he had his music absolutely blaring and he was playing a horrible airguitar. He went to work like that. Sometimes I'm more adult than my own dad. I can't keep from being horribly let down by him lately. I love him so much.
    I need to get out of my house. I've been alone a lot lately, I don't like that. I liked how the past couple of weeks were when I was suurrounded by al of you laughing and smiling. I love being around you guys. =]