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i dont even know where to start to say anything about what has happend...
i feel like i have been decived into beliveing something that wasnt real, whole heartedly beliving a lie for lack of mor apt words
i feel like i hav....
WAIT! this is pointless for me to go on, last night God promised me that this was right, for her, and for me
i robbed her of this time once iwill not do it again
i do care for her...more than i knew, i dont know how i am going to do this, going back to december is hard
she needs this more than she needs me
i want God more than her right now
i still hurt, im not sure how to describe it but its empty
but in that emptyness their is a safeness in God.
so no im left with, well God and myslef in a realtionship
and that is a good, no a great place to be...
i feel like i have been decived into beliveing something that wasnt real, whole heartedly beliving a lie for lack of mor apt words
i feel like i hav....
WAIT! this is pointless for me to go on, last night God promised me that this was right, for her, and for me
i robbed her of this time once iwill not do it again
i do care for her...more than i knew, i dont know how i am going to do this, going back to december is hard
she needs this more than she needs me
i want God more than her right now
i still hurt, im not sure how to describe it but its empty
but in that emptyness their is a safeness in God.
so no im left with, well God and myslef in a realtionship
and that is a good, no a great place to be...