Hospital

[oddyophile]

My head is a mess right now. Fever, and pain killers, and pain...so much pain. I can't eat, but I'm hungry. I'm embarrassed; I'm ashamed. I succumbed to a desire for attention, my need for human company. I asked people to go out of their way for me and now I feel alone. Like I failed. Because I didn't want to be seen so low, so needy, and now I feel it. Like I'm someone to be avoided.

And my head isn't right, and I don't know how to make it better. Gotta step back and do less. Hope I can be forgiven because I can't find it in me to forgive myself right now.