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I saw an article on astronomers discovering a free-floating planet without a sun. Just floating out there in space with no orbit; nothing holding it in place. I feel kind of like that. At the moment I have very little holding me in place. After the trip to California there is nothing to look forward to. Day by day no expectations, nothing to accomplish, and, other than dialysis, nowhere to go. There aren't even video games to distract me. Everything I've got, I'm bored with. The things I don't have don't interest me. I've watched all the television I want to watch. Seen all the movies I want to see. The apartment is cleaned. The bills are paid. There's enough food to satisfy my waning need to eat.
I still don't know yet when Ellen's surgery will be. It should be before I come down for Brandon's (my cousin) wedding, but I don't know when. I offered to fly down and hang out with her after the surgery. Seems only fair, considering all the times she's done the same for me. She declined, though. I have the money, and I still might, but right now I'll just be sitting up here while she's having her first experience as a patient. 62 years and she's never had a surgery, or stayed in a hospital bed. I really think I should be there, and not being there is bothering me in a way few things do anymore.
I might go for a walk. Just to see if I can.
I still don't know yet when Ellen's surgery will be. It should be before I come down for Brandon's (my cousin) wedding, but I don't know when. I offered to fly down and hang out with her after the surgery. Seems only fair, considering all the times she's done the same for me. She declined, though. I have the money, and I still might, but right now I'll just be sitting up here while she's having her first experience as a patient. 62 years and she's never had a surgery, or stayed in a hospital bed. I really think I should be there, and not being there is bothering me in a way few things do anymore.
I might go for a walk. Just to see if I can.