I'm all smiles and happy conversation!
How stupid is it that Lovely Complex makes me so very happy. I'm sitting here at my computer smiling like the biggest dork in history and am totally okay with it. I got volumes 1-4 at the library today then came home and read the best parts online. Like when Risa confesses then...this...and that. XD It's very disheartening that nobody would get the "this and that" joke because *COUGH*SARAH*COUGH* no one has finished reading it yet. Seriously, it just makes me all giddy and happy inside and out. I can't help but smile. I've been sitting here for at least two hours, just smiling. It's a wonderful feeling. I hope it leaks over to this week. I would very much love that.
Well, you know, it's honest to say that I have special reasons for loving it. I'm the very same height as Risa (5"7-damn you one inch! I could be 5"8 but nooooo) and I guess you could say I've been through similar situations as her. Though I've never found a guy any where near as sweet as Otani. Honestly. If I did, I'd jump him in a millisecond. At any rate. I very much sympathize with her on a level very few people can. It may have been middle school and it was, with all readiness, I admit, very, very silly, but my little thing with Ben was a bit of a damper on my confidence. If any of you get to complain about anything, it's me and Katherine! WE ARE TALL (her more, but whatever)! It was always really ashamed of walking through the halls next to Ben. He was really freakin' short. It was fair. At the time, I believed I really liked him and, in all honesty, I did. Looking back, of course, it was just middle schoolers being middle schoolers. But, I was...god, I was so...XD At any rate, I would, for the next few years, slouch and shy away from my height. It wasn't till I started dancing that I decided being tall was fucking awesome and that I should totally embrace my height and then, of course, I stopped growing (geneticfail!). I like to joke about how much taller I was then Ben but, at the time, I was very offended.
So, whenever I read about Risa and Otani, I feel like I'm reading about me and...I don't know, Ben and I had we started dating now (and he had remained 5 foot one-lol that would have been so funny). Granted, there are some differences with Ben and Otani, but there are a lot of similarities. His total lack of sharing his emotions is the most similar one (though in Lovecom, it's portrayed in a funny way, not a total malfunction in the system way) because God knows Ben sucks at telling people he cares about how he feels. When he did say nice things, I was on fucking cloud nine (seriously, read Lovecom and that was me). Ben used to make fun of me too, of my height. I can't remember if I made fun of him. (haha, I asked him) He says he doesn't remember either. Anyways, it's likely that we had that sort of relationship, though it was not nearly as obnoxious as it was with Otani and Risa. Like, I hugged him one time (or maybe this happened multipul times) and he pretended to choke because my shoulder went into his neck.
I also had Kristin, who was very similar to Nobu. She was fashionable and very pushy towards Ben and I getting together. And...well she dated lots of boys so I can't really say she had a single boy she was attached to (continuity for Kristin?! pah!) I don't think I had a Tanaka, but how awesome would that have been? VERY!
I love being a dork. It's really fun. But, I'm not kidding. I'm very similar to Risa, in a good way, I like to think. I've sort of turned into her (because I was NOT like her in Middle School-no way!). I've started dressing like her and smiling like her. I could blame my total FAIL at school on her, but I sucked at school before her and will continue to after her. I mean, I'm doing this all on my own. It's totally subconciously done. Subconciously. Subconciously? I've spelled it the same way three times didn't I? Ah, egal.
So, in closing, I say this; LoveCom rocks. It's very much the best love story I've ever read, close to home, and awesome. Love it XD
aaaah, happy feelings.
I'm talking to Ben right now about when we broke up. Aaah, it's fun. I'm explaining to him why I broke up with him. Ben, in all honesty, was waaaay to pessimistic for me. I'm a happy person, I mean REALLY happy person. I just am. I get it from my mom. But, I used to get into black moods, but that's a different story. Many, this is bringing back memories. In 5th grade, I broke up with Matt in a note. Matt was shorter then me. And that was awkward. "Silence' sums up our 'relationship'. I said less then ten words to him during dating him for three months (or something like). God that was good times. Then, there was Ben, who was a year, and we didn't even kiss (this was middle school mind you. I was not a complete ho in middle school. I was twelve and I acted like a twelve year old!). Then, I tried breaking up with him on the phone and, at the time, I thought that was okay. It was over the phone, but it was my voice, not a note! I tried to tell Ben it was over but, of course, I choked up. I ended up telling him on AIM (relationshipFAIL). Then there was a dry spell then Mindy. Which...I don't even think that counts so I'm not going to explain that one. And then Steven. I would say poor guy but I don't think he's let the whole thing go. It's been almost two years. It's time to get over it. I was a bitch, whatever. I "dated" him for a bit then broke up with him (internet? I hope not). Then, I was told Kristin was talking about me behind my back calling me a 'whore' or something like that. Then I broke down (for what reason, not sure). I remember calling Jennifer on Matt's phone, asking him to give the phone to her, and crying to her. Why? That's a bit fuzzy. haha
Then I went back to Matt, thinking, 'Yeah! I can finally work out how to be in a realtionship! Yes!" then I discovered, no, no I can't. That went similarly to how it went to first time; little to no contact. XD I broke up with him at Homecoming. Becuase he asked me what was wrong! I had already lied for a week, saying nothing was wrong. I finally had to come out and say that I wasn't comfortable with what was going on. I hope I said that it was me, not him, that I'm not ready for relationships, not in high school. Which, had I said, probably didn't help anyways. But, afterwards, I felt great, man! It was this huge weight lifted off my shoulders to the point where I felt like could fly. It was fucking awesome. Poor Matt. XD And, from then on out, I have been devout in belief that I suck at relationships and should avoid them at all costs. I'm very much against anything lovey-dovey. Makes me sick. I am, mentally, still a five-year-old. Or, maybe, I'm just like that. Only time will tell.
AAAAAH. How did I get to talking about this? Sorry for talking so much!
Happy week, everyone!
Well, you know, it's honest to say that I have special reasons for loving it. I'm the very same height as Risa (5"7-damn you one inch! I could be 5"8 but nooooo) and I guess you could say I've been through similar situations as her. Though I've never found a guy any where near as sweet as Otani. Honestly. If I did, I'd jump him in a millisecond. At any rate. I very much sympathize with her on a level very few people can. It may have been middle school and it was, with all readiness, I admit, very, very silly, but my little thing with Ben was a bit of a damper on my confidence. If any of you get to complain about anything, it's me and Katherine! WE ARE TALL (her more, but whatever)! It was always really ashamed of walking through the halls next to Ben. He was really freakin' short. It was fair. At the time, I believed I really liked him and, in all honesty, I did. Looking back, of course, it was just middle schoolers being middle schoolers. But, I was...god, I was so...XD At any rate, I would, for the next few years, slouch and shy away from my height. It wasn't till I started dancing that I decided being tall was fucking awesome and that I should totally embrace my height and then, of course, I stopped growing (geneticfail!). I like to joke about how much taller I was then Ben but, at the time, I was very offended.
So, whenever I read about Risa and Otani, I feel like I'm reading about me and...I don't know, Ben and I had we started dating now (and he had remained 5 foot one-lol that would have been so funny). Granted, there are some differences with Ben and Otani, but there are a lot of similarities. His total lack of sharing his emotions is the most similar one (though in Lovecom, it's portrayed in a funny way, not a total malfunction in the system way) because God knows Ben sucks at telling people he cares about how he feels. When he did say nice things, I was on fucking cloud nine (seriously, read Lovecom and that was me). Ben used to make fun of me too, of my height. I can't remember if I made fun of him. (haha, I asked him) He says he doesn't remember either. Anyways, it's likely that we had that sort of relationship, though it was not nearly as obnoxious as it was with Otani and Risa. Like, I hugged him one time (or maybe this happened multipul times) and he pretended to choke because my shoulder went into his neck.
I also had Kristin, who was very similar to Nobu. She was fashionable and very pushy towards Ben and I getting together. And...well she dated lots of boys so I can't really say she had a single boy she was attached to (continuity for Kristin?! pah!) I don't think I had a Tanaka, but how awesome would that have been? VERY!
I love being a dork. It's really fun. But, I'm not kidding. I'm very similar to Risa, in a good way, I like to think. I've sort of turned into her (because I was NOT like her in Middle School-no way!). I've started dressing like her and smiling like her. I could blame my total FAIL at school on her, but I sucked at school before her and will continue to after her. I mean, I'm doing this all on my own. It's totally subconciously done. Subconciously. Subconciously? I've spelled it the same way three times didn't I? Ah, egal.
So, in closing, I say this; LoveCom rocks. It's very much the best love story I've ever read, close to home, and awesome. Love it XD
aaaah, happy feelings.
I'm talking to Ben right now about when we broke up. Aaah, it's fun. I'm explaining to him why I broke up with him. Ben, in all honesty, was waaaay to pessimistic for me. I'm a happy person, I mean REALLY happy person. I just am. I get it from my mom. But, I used to get into black moods, but that's a different story. Many, this is bringing back memories. In 5th grade, I broke up with Matt in a note. Matt was shorter then me. And that was awkward. "Silence' sums up our 'relationship'. I said less then ten words to him during dating him for three months (or something like). God that was good times. Then, there was Ben, who was a year, and we didn't even kiss (this was middle school mind you. I was not a complete ho in middle school. I was twelve and I acted like a twelve year old!). Then, I tried breaking up with him on the phone and, at the time, I thought that was okay. It was over the phone, but it was my voice, not a note! I tried to tell Ben it was over but, of course, I choked up. I ended up telling him on AIM (relationshipFAIL). Then there was a dry spell then Mindy. Which...I don't even think that counts so I'm not going to explain that one. And then Steven. I would say poor guy but I don't think he's let the whole thing go. It's been almost two years. It's time to get over it. I was a bitch, whatever. I "dated" him for a bit then broke up with him (internet? I hope not). Then, I was told Kristin was talking about me behind my back calling me a 'whore' or something like that. Then I broke down (for what reason, not sure). I remember calling Jennifer on Matt's phone, asking him to give the phone to her, and crying to her. Why? That's a bit fuzzy. haha
Then I went back to Matt, thinking, 'Yeah! I can finally work out how to be in a realtionship! Yes!" then I discovered, no, no I can't. That went similarly to how it went to first time; little to no contact. XD I broke up with him at Homecoming. Becuase he asked me what was wrong! I had already lied for a week, saying nothing was wrong. I finally had to come out and say that I wasn't comfortable with what was going on. I hope I said that it was me, not him, that I'm not ready for relationships, not in high school. Which, had I said, probably didn't help anyways. But, afterwards, I felt great, man! It was this huge weight lifted off my shoulders to the point where I felt like could fly. It was fucking awesome. Poor Matt. XD And, from then on out, I have been devout in belief that I suck at relationships and should avoid them at all costs. I'm very much against anything lovey-dovey. Makes me sick. I am, mentally, still a five-year-old. Or, maybe, I'm just like that. Only time will tell.
AAAAAH. How did I get to talking about this? Sorry for talking so much!
Happy week, everyone!