Resolution(s) and text!
This resolutions part of this entry will be written to confine to the entry box on the update page. You may find that there are unnecessary breaks, but I can't really help that one much. As far as I can tell, there is no hanging indent option available, which I would use if it were available.
Resolutions
1.) Be more open with him.
I need to be more open with my boyfriend. I need to tell him things that bother me, or at least write them down in a note for him to
read if he's too busy at the moment with whatever. I need to be more open and honest with him, but... that's the part I have trouble with.
2.) Be more kind with myself.
I need to stop telling myself to shut up when I start thinking too much for my taste. I broke down my mind because it was getting too
loud and noisy and making it hard for me to fall asleep. My boyfriend made the comment that I made myself stupid for doing that. I can see where he can say this, since since I've done this (read that as a "that that" kind of sentence) it's been really, really hard for me to focus on what people are saying when I'm holding a verbal conversation, or someone's telling me a lot of information I need to know. Yes, I can now hold onto about four different points, "shapes" per se, in my head and blink in others for very short periods of time, but... I need the listening and focus skills that I have damaged. Especially since we don't have telepathic technology yet. My holding different points, or being able to make shapes with a little difficulty, doesn't really matter, especially since I'm not a practicing pagan. Yes, it could be helpful with dreaming, but the lucid part is what's holding me back.
3.) Call home.
I've left the nest over a year ago and have barely called mom and dad. Yes, it does make me very depressed, homesick, but... I need
to call mom and dad some. I'm daddy's little girl and he really worries about me. Mom knows I'm out to do the things I need to do, but she still cares about me as well. And my brother misses me terribly and is getting his half of the property cleared out enough for him to get a trailer in so that I might be willing to come back and visit more. I feel horrible about it, too... but there isn't really much I can do since I have to rely on others to get me back home since I'm so freaked out about driving. And I hate it that everyone is so pressing to get me to drive. You don't throw someone with a phobia of horses in with Clydesdales. But I am glad that they are giving me a chance to become a little more acclimated to being driven around and getting a feel for the traffic when I'm on my way to work or something. You have the person walk past a ranch with a Shetland Pony visible, slowly adding in small equines before you stick them in the middle of a full pasture.
4.) Do what needs to be done.
I have small projects, like a spreader bar, that I was wanting to do and have pretty much abandoned (though I will say, in my
defense, we need a tube instead of a pipe for that bar). I need to pick up what I say I'm going to do and do it. If I say I'm going to clean my side of the room (it is pretty trashed (x_x)), then I need to do it.
5.) Avoid that little extra nibble.
OMGFOOD. This is the hardest bit for me. I need to drink more water or juice and try to avoid that one teeny little extra cracker, or bite.
This will probably be the hardest for me, but... I need to do this. And maybe hop on that exercise bike a bit, if it's safe to do so...
So, resolutions aside, I'm hoping to get my little sticky cactus wide enough to do a cutting, or watered enough that it gets pups hanging off of it. I'll be doing some experiments with them to see how I can get them to grow wider and not be so skinny. I'll be sticking my Aloe variegata, I believe that's what it is, under an Intelligent Plant Light, something my boyfriend's, I'll start calling him Mirage now, for ease, mom gave me for Christmas. We had to send it back to Amazon since a red wire, the one connected to the light bulb, was cut. I figured out the red wire was connected to the light bulb because I left it on overnight and the light never came on. I'll be inspecting this one closer to about 7:30 or 8:30 tomorrow morning (since it has a microchip in it that starts the light cycle at that time, and my aloe shouldn't go off on a wonky schedule since it's been sitting next to a (drafty) window for the past month). I'll have it sitting in my bedroom so I can keep an eye on it, and my cacti don't need to go where it's warm, though Julius could probably use this since he's not in a semi-closed, or very tall, pot like my two little babies are. A little heat gets trapped in the barrel those two are in, so they don't have a draft in them all the time. I'll prolly stick the light on Julius though, for a little while, so he can get a little warmer, it's been cold this winter a drafty window can't be too healthy for him (>_<). He needs it anyway, he's not growing straight like I'd like him to...
But I'll leave this at that and find something else to do. Prolly doodle those pictures I was talking about (x_o). I'll prolly see about a small round cake for our anniversary with an Oddish (me) and a Shuckle (him) on it, hehe x3 I dunno if the store can do those images, but they can do Pikachu cakes, 3D and images. I would hope they could do those :(