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My dream came true. I started a job almost two years ago and I met this guy. I thought he was cute from the start and from what I would continue to learn about him I grew to like him. Basically I liked this guy for almost a whole year. I never thought I had a chance with him because he is some years older than me and I thought he would never really give me the time of day in that respect. Then my dream came true. We started talking more and went on some dates and this guy became my boyfriend. I told myself everyday how lucky I was. He would tell me he felt lucky, I would tell him I felt so lucky to have him. I fell in love. We were together for seven months. Then on our 7th month anniversary, he asked for a night to himself, which was a normal thing. But then the next night he asked for a few more days, and a few more days turned into a week. I still saw him at work and at the gym and he told me everything was fine and not to worry. But things were different and I had a familiar feeling in my gut, and it wasn't good. Eventually we came to talk and he told me he met someone else, someone more his age. And he wanted to be with her now, but he still liked me. I was the best relationship he ever had, I was perfect. But he had to think about settling down, and I later found out wanted to think about having kids. He always told me that all that wasn't for him. There are too many kids in the world, why would he bring another one in? I always hoped that that would change. I saw myself being with him. I know that I could live without ever having a child of my own but I do hope to have one some day. My career comes second to me, I want love, I want a family. I was not given the option to talk about settling down and having kids. Love is my priority. My happiness is my priority. He told me he was five years behind on all this, and I was ten years away. I don't want to be ten years away from all that. I want these things to be my present, not my future. I was so hurt that he decided all these things about my life without even consulting me on them. It hurts me that there is someone out there that knew that he and I were in a relationship and still pursued him. That someone who is "older" than me, who is supposed to be wiser than me, does not have the decency to think twice about taking someone's love away. It's so hurtful. All I want is a chance at the future that is supposed to be mine. I want to know why this was all taken away from me. I want to be with who I love. I want my dream come true back...