betwixt

Aug 14, 2007 01:50

i'm not here
i'm not here
i'm everything and everywhere i want to be but my body keeps me
in between the then and soon
indefinable and immeasurable spaces of an idea that cannot be fathomed in its entirety

so i change and i prepare
perpetually stuck
i'm not here
i'm not here
i am not there either but do i want to be?

am i running?
crawling?
sleeping?
falling?
or is the shaking causing an illusion i interpret as movement to keep me

in between
the here the now
the place i sit
the spot i think
the thought is stuck between the sounds i can't ignore or focus on

i want to move but am unsure where
can i even make it there?
can i conquer my last bits of fear?
what keeps me from getting to the want that burns so near?
do i even know where i am or want to be?
am i really stuck or able to swim free?

i don't want to make it there someday
i don't want to be in between preparing
where ever i'm going with this fear i'm wearing
i'm not here
i'm not here

you may see me and you may hear me and you may touch me but i am not here anymore.
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