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So I saw Harry Potter, and I kind of almost wish I hadn't.
It's not that I'm not angry that it sucked (which it did), it's that I'm angry but don't really care otherwise.
Which makes me sad.
I promised myself when I was younger that I would never outgrow Harry Potter. And now I've realized that I have, and that makes me really sad. Not outgrew in the sense that I'm too old, because I'm never too old for Harry Potter - I'm a nerd at heart, I was heavy, heavy into the fandom for two or three years and I believe that if I cared that much about it in the first place, I'm never too old. (I have friends who were fans but not hardcore like I was, hardcore enough to participate in wanky online fandom; they are the kinds of people who really "outgrow" it) Just outgrew in the sense that now I speculate on and read fanfiction about Doctor Who instead.
But I seriously almost didn't give a shit that Half Blood Prince was coming out, and now I'm wishing I hadn't seen it because it made me really angry which makes me sad. If I hadn't seen it, I wouldn't be remembering how much I used to care. But I still want to care.
So I'm thinking I may rejoin hogwarts_elite after a what, two-year absence? Y'all, I joined HE when I was FOURTEEN. HOLY SHIT. I'm in no way "old" BUT I FEEL OLD. If I rejoin can I still say I joined in term two and make it sound oldschool and awesome? Probably not.
It's not that I'm not angry that it sucked (which it did), it's that I'm angry but don't really care otherwise.
Which makes me sad.
I promised myself when I was younger that I would never outgrow Harry Potter. And now I've realized that I have, and that makes me really sad. Not outgrew in the sense that I'm too old, because I'm never too old for Harry Potter - I'm a nerd at heart, I was heavy, heavy into the fandom for two or three years and I believe that if I cared that much about it in the first place, I'm never too old. (I have friends who were fans but not hardcore like I was, hardcore enough to participate in wanky online fandom; they are the kinds of people who really "outgrow" it) Just outgrew in the sense that now I speculate on and read fanfiction about Doctor Who instead.
But I seriously almost didn't give a shit that Half Blood Prince was coming out, and now I'm wishing I hadn't seen it because it made me really angry which makes me sad. If I hadn't seen it, I wouldn't be remembering how much I used to care. But I still want to care.
So I'm thinking I may rejoin hogwarts_elite after a what, two-year absence? Y'all, I joined HE when I was FOURTEEN. HOLY SHIT. I'm in no way "old" BUT I FEEL OLD. If I rejoin can I still say I joined in term two and make it sound oldschool and awesome? Probably not.