this is all i needed.
RaW sKoE 03: im working at banana did i tell u
LiLEvEn13: no!
LiLEvEn13: bannana... as in bannana rep.
RaW sKoE 03: yea
LiLEvEn13: danny's a prep lmao
RaW sKoE 03: lol i look fresh
LiLEvEn13: im sure u do fool
RaW sKoE 03: da ladies luv me wut can i say i do it for them
LiLEvEn13: o lord
RaW sKoE 03: i look hot in the clothes n its cool job
LiLEvEn13: how are the ladies? still playing them all for fools?
RaW sKoE 03: lol yea but i want wifey!!!!
RaW sKoE 03: i want kim but shes 2 much wifey lol
LiLEvEn13: lol
LiLEvEn13: yea shes serious
RaW sKoE 03: i no a even or a jenner g/f girl
RaW sKoE 03: jenner is on his way right now
LiLEvEn13: i leave tomorrow i cant wait
RaW sKoE 03: yea sean told me
LiLEvEn13: i have a fukin test dude
LiLEvEn13: if not id be there already
RaW sKoE 03: damn
LiLEvEn13: yea but im pretty serious too
LiLEvEn13: and so is jenners girl
LiLEvEn13: it takes a lot
RaW sKoE 03: yea but u let em have fun but then again ur men dont give u reason not to trust em u feel me
LiLEvEn13: no room for messing around lol
RaW sKoE 03: yea
RaW sKoE 03: but im ganna find 1
RaW sKoE 03: if not its back to my real wifey lol
LiLEvEn13: lol and who is that?
RaW sKoE 03: rachel lmao
RaW sKoE 03: shes always der
LiLEvEn13: o lord... poor girl
RaW sKoE 03: lol
RaW sKoE 03: i no but she has mad fun n does her thing
LiLEvEn13: thats good
LiLEvEn13: i duno
LiLEvEn13: i dont really go out without sean
LiLEvEn13: i dont want him to go out without me and find someone else
RaW sKoE 03: he wont man he loves u
RaW sKoE 03: mad proops for the shit he did on da wall
LiLEvEn13: im so scared of something like that though
LiLEvEn13: i know lol that was too much
LiLEvEn13: i dont know though kid
LiLEvEn13: lately ive been wierd
LiLEvEn13: like im scared im not enough
RaW sKoE 03: ask him
LiLEvEn13: i have
RaW sKoE 03: and?
LiLEvEn13: and i feel stupid
LiLEvEn13: im just paranoid
RaW sKoE 03: its ganna push him away
LiLEvEn13: i know i am but i dont want to be
RaW sKoE 03: just trust him
LiLEvEn13: i knoe
LiLEvEn13: its hard
RaW sKoE 03: i doubt he would do anything like that
LiLEvEn13: ive been played one too many times
RaW sKoE 03: has he givin u reason not 2?
LiLEvEn13: no
RaW sKoE 03: den
LiLEvEn13: but neither did arabel
RaW sKoE 03: dont even bother
RaW sKoE 03: man fuck arabel
RaW sKoE 03: seans a good guy trust me
LiLEvEn13: the girls here are so freakin hot
LiLEvEn13: its scary
RaW sKoE 03: so dat dont mean shit
LiLEvEn13: and they put themselvesout there
RaW sKoE 03: so sean knows wassa
LiLEvEn13: lol
LiLEvEn13: ur right though
LiLEvEn13: it isnt anything that hes done... im just freaking out u know.... i feel like im way too into hi
LiLEvEn13: *him
RaW sKoE 03: naw dont man he feels da same im sure
LiLEvEn13: and ive been getting super jealous at the dumbest shit... i get mad at myself afterwards
LiLEvEn13: i feel like im turning into the typical gf... you know...like it isnt me
RaW sKoE 03: just be u
RaW sKoE 03: fuck it man
sometimes advice frome the people you least expect to hear it from becomes the advice that can be the most valuable at the moment.
i've been so out of it lately. sometimes i feel like i dont deserve him. sometimes i wonder if im like my mom. and i wonder how it was that she lost her sense of humor and love for life before she found God. I have God, but lately it seems like what ever has happened in the past has come back to haunt me in every aspect of my life to the point where i cant be myself and relax and have fun. and then i understand her, but i want to change it. i over analyze EVERYTHING and i immediately go to the worst conclusions.... i really need to break this cycle.
and then i have the audacity to call people pessimistic.... sorry
what a simple concept... one that i used to have such a good grasp of... i cant let it slip away... i wont
this weekend was fun... and fausto is right, "true friends never change"... although its not the friends that never change, its the friendship. true friendship is resilient to bad moods, and distance, and anger, and even happiness.
oh how i love my friends, my best friends.