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Went out to see Scott Pilgrim vs The World last night with some of the people from work, which could account for why I'm feeling all weird and shit today.
Anyways, after last night... I find myself pissed off AND depressed, which is an odd feeling.... though not one I'm unaccustomed to. I like to call it Angry-Emo.
Little back story in case you're new to my life/just don't really know me... I spend WAY too much time by myself. Like... nearly all of it. If I'm not at work, I'm probably sitting at home or out running errands by myself. It's not often I hang out with people (probably because my interests are kinda like... gaming, gaming, and more gaming. I don't seem to know a whole shit ton of people who are also like that). Just makes it a little difficult to go to parties and things when I know the main focus is going to be drinking and getting drunk. That's what I miss about college. We had gaming nights, anime nights, shit like that. I don't think we ever had night where we said "Lets get fucking trashed". Hell, I don't think we actually drank but once or twice.
I'm going to blame the fact that... well... when I do hang out with people, I never feel like anyone really cares I'm there, like they wouldn't miss me if I was gone... and you know what? I can't blame them if they didn't. I'm just an asshole with low self esteem that needs other people to make him feel wanted so he can feel good about himself.
Anyways, after last night... I find myself pissed off AND depressed, which is an odd feeling.... though not one I'm unaccustomed to. I like to call it Angry-Emo.
Little back story in case you're new to my life/just don't really know me... I spend WAY too much time by myself. Like... nearly all of it. If I'm not at work, I'm probably sitting at home or out running errands by myself. It's not often I hang out with people (probably because my interests are kinda like... gaming, gaming, and more gaming. I don't seem to know a whole shit ton of people who are also like that). Just makes it a little difficult to go to parties and things when I know the main focus is going to be drinking and getting drunk. That's what I miss about college. We had gaming nights, anime nights, shit like that. I don't think we ever had night where we said "Lets get fucking trashed". Hell, I don't think we actually drank but once or twice.
I'm going to blame the fact that... well... when I do hang out with people, I never feel like anyone really cares I'm there, like they wouldn't miss me if I was gone... and you know what? I can't blame them if they didn't. I'm just an asshole with low self esteem that needs other people to make him feel wanted so he can feel good about himself.