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well only one person noes how i feel right now...
and well now the world will know
im lost, im happy, not sad, just confused on my path in life. relgion? is there a god? school i thought i would do better? love life still there? friends who are my friends? skating my favorite pastime is taking over again ^-^ !!! to much thinking time! music is where i can go and find my inner self. it speaks to me and helps guides me to make decisions, life is stressful. im never going to get bigger. what's this i feel? i pray for guidance, i pray that friends will be happy, i pray bernie finds her way as well, i pray i make it another day, i pray for good heath, all this rummages through my mind as i sat all day, not talking to anyone but comtemplating my life. i want to tell my real mom wut hell shes brought me into. she dosnt realize how much i want to see her, and be with MY REAL MOM, everyone else has their mom cept kids like me :/, i dont and i want that, i want the person who brought me into this world with me, i want to tell her all the things that ive accomplished, i want to start life over again and see if it would get any better than this, with her with me and him, I WANT MY FAMILY!!!! I WANT THEM, I WANT TO BE WITH THEM! I WANT TO START OVER!.
my friends, who i cheerish the most, keep me from losing my sanity, thnk u ^-^
althought i treasure this one, i cant help but wonder.
and well now the world will know
im lost, im happy, not sad, just confused on my path in life. relgion? is there a god? school i thought i would do better? love life still there? friends who are my friends? skating my favorite pastime is taking over again ^-^ !!! to much thinking time! music is where i can go and find my inner self. it speaks to me and helps guides me to make decisions, life is stressful. im never going to get bigger. what's this i feel? i pray for guidance, i pray that friends will be happy, i pray bernie finds her way as well, i pray i make it another day, i pray for good heath, all this rummages through my mind as i sat all day, not talking to anyone but comtemplating my life. i want to tell my real mom wut hell shes brought me into. she dosnt realize how much i want to see her, and be with MY REAL MOM, everyone else has their mom cept kids like me :/, i dont and i want that, i want the person who brought me into this world with me, i want to tell her all the things that ive accomplished, i want to start life over again and see if it would get any better than this, with her with me and him, I WANT MY FAMILY!!!! I WANT THEM, I WANT TO BE WITH THEM! I WANT TO START OVER!.
my friends, who i cheerish the most, keep me from losing my sanity, thnk u ^-^
althought i treasure this one, i cant help but wonder.