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Reconnect a RamHello Friends!
First, the tl;dr version: laptop died and because of medical reasons I need to apply to new jobs. If you would like to donate my PayPal address is: BleatsByBre @ gmail dot com. If PayPal asks you to put in a shipping address please select no shipping required unless you donate $25+ because you will receive a "SnootieBoop" magnet, like the one shown here:
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For those who would like the full background of what is going on, please read on!
I spent the last week of August 2014 in the hospital and left with both the news that I had a non functioning thyroid and the pain that I went to the ER for in the first place. I was placed on medication to try and get my thyroid to start working again, pain medication that makes me pretty much nonfunctional, and I made some very huge lifestyle changes to try and support healing anyway I can. The thyroid issue is super manageable and was easy to solve, however the constant pain is still in place and my doctors feel that I am possibly facing a very deep hernia. I have appointments in upcoming weeks to investigate this further (ultrasound, CT scan, meeting with surgeon). These were the first availible dates, though I am on "standby" lists in case there are any cancellations.
Unfortunately, my current job keeps me on call 24/7 and there are days when I'm at the office for a good thirteen hours or so. More easy to deal with when you don't feel like you're being stabbed in your lower gut. While they are giving me half days this week as I am dealing with my new medication and managing the pain (to the best of their ability. I've already had to work longer than scheduled), it is becoming apparent that this type of schedule is detrimental to my health. As of right now, the company cannot give me any futher information besides the fact I am "in the red" and that they don't know what else to offer me or if they can offer anything else at this point. There is no solid answer from HR or my managers. There is a very real chance of me losing my job. Meanwhile they just want to know when I can get back on the full oncall schedule. Understandable but frustrating.
I need to look for new job however, I am currently without a personal computer to do so and (for obvious reasons) I cannot use my work computer. I cannot leave my current company without a job to transfer to and leaving California would be extremely detrimental to my mental health, something that I've been working very hard on and have improved in leaps and bounds. Returning to Connecticut is not an option and I do not know where else I would go. My support base is in California and having to leave would undo a year of very hard work.
At the beginning of August, my MacBook Pro died. The cost to repair it is not that far off from the price of a new one. Within the same week, I accidentally left my iPad in the seat back pocket of an early morning flight. The airline has not found it yet. I have been living on my phone, and a tablet generously lent to me from a friend, for the last month.
I am running this campaign to save up for a new 13" MacBook Pro. Any extra money I make will go towards a new iPad so that I can rebuild my former digital art workstation. With my new laptop, I will be able to apply to a new job that will be a better fit for my adjusted life, as well as give me a little extra time to work on my medical issues.
If you have any questions, please feel free to reach out. I will be posting the majority of updates on Twitter @brebleats but some will show up here too.
And thank you for reading, donating and/or sharing my story. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
-Bre