I'm never gonna be a father
Chapter 3: I’m never gonna be a father
“I’ll be here around midnight” Sho said taking his car keys from the table close to the door. Himawari was in the room putting the finishing touches on her hair.
“Okay, I’m not gonna stay for too long on the bachelorette party, I don’t feel to good.” Himawari said closing the door of the room after her and walked to Sho who was on the living room. “What you looking at?” She asked when she noticed Sho was looking at her and didn’t even blink. Sho smiled and looked at her eyes.
“You look beautiful” Sho said hugging her, she smiled and hugged back. When they were about to kiss the door bell rang. Sho sighed and went to open the door.
“Kara-chan Hello” Sho said letting Aiba’s now official girlfriend in.
“Where is your lovely wife?” Karina said while taking her shoes off.
“Here” Himawari replied from the living room.
“Girls I have to go, I didn’t know it was part of the best man job to be a magic mirror and tell the groom how fantastic he looks.” Sho said annoyed. He walked up to his wife, gave her a kiss and gave a peak to her not so big belly.
The girls watched as Sho gave them a final wave and closed the door behind him.
“Come on, Jachira is waiting on Hikari’s house”
“Let me just get my purse and we can be on our way.” Himawari went to the corridor and took her purse form the perch. Closing the door, the two girls climbed into the car and made their way to the bachelorette party they planned for Jachira (Matsumoto Jun’s fiancé) in Ohno’s and Hikari’s house.
“Thanks, and sorry again for the trouble” Himawari apologies for the hundred time to Karina, when she pulled up in front of the Sakurai household.
“Not to worry, I had to go anyway, I have worked tomorrow” Karina reassured Himawari watching as she got of the car. “Are you gonna be okay? You said you felt weird at the party”
“It’s ok I think is just stomached” Himawari smiled and saying their goodbyes Karina started the car and drove off and Himawari entered her house.
Himawari looked at the clock and saw it was 11:30, Sho said he was gonna be there at midnight so she went to the living room to wait for him. Almost an hour had passed and still there was no Sho, Himawari got up from the sofa to get the phone and call Sho but on the way she got dizzy and had to stop walking and hold on to the chair from the dining table. After she could see correctly again, she let out a swallowed breath and continued her way to the phone.
She dialed Sho’s number and waited for him to pick it up but he didn’t, she tried for a while but still no Sho. With unsteady steps she walked back to the sofa and sat down. Himawari started wandering if Sho was okay so she tried every number of the Arashi clan and ended up with no answers. Now she started to think that something seriously what’s wrong. She tried again calling Sho’s phone again.
“Sho” Himawari almost scream when he picked up. “Where are you?” she asked worried.
“I’m on my way” Sho replayed.
“Are you driving?” she asked more worried, if that was possible, when she notice he was drunk from the way he was talking.
“Yes” Sho sounded annoyed.
“You shouldn’t be driving while your drunk” Himawari started to get dizzy again so she closed her eyes and rubbed her temple.
“Stop nagging me woman, I’m almost there” Sho screamed and shut the phone.
“Sho don’t-Ah!” in that moment Himawari bent forward with a stabbing pain coming from her stomach. She took the phone again, dialed Karina’s phone and took a steadying breath to help her control her pain.
“Moshi Mosh” came the sleepy voice of Karina.
“Kara-chan, would you come over, I think my water just broke and Sho’s not here” Himawari said it all in one breath then screamed again as another stabbing pain went through her body.
“On my way”
As Karina’s house wan not far from the Sakurai’s she got there in less than 5 minutes. Karina assisted Himawari to the car and speed up to the closest hospital, getting there with a screaming Himawari.
Sho got to the house about 10 or 15 minutes after Karina arrived to take Himawari to the hospital. The phone started ringing and Sho rolled his eyes and went to get it.
“Sho-chan?” came the voice of Nino form the other line.
“Yes”
“You have to come down to the hospital; Himawari had problems with her pregnancy.”
As those words got to Sho’s head he hanged the phone and sprinted out of the house and drove to the hospital, drunkenness forgotten. When he got there, he asked where the maternity level and sprinted to it when the receptionist told him.
Sho got to the floor and found all the other Arashi members with their wife’s. When he saw is friends he instantly knew something was not right, they all had dark looks and the women had tears on their eyes.
“What happened” Sho asked hoping the answer wasn’t the one he thought.
“She had complications in her pregnancy, she didn’t notice or she didn’t mind them” Jachira said after an uncomfortable silence. “The doctor said something must have upset her or she made a wrong move to cause the emergency deliver.” Jachira started to explain but had to stop because she lost her voice. Sho looked at everyone and tears started to weld up in his eyes.
“Someone please, tell me what’s wrong”
“She… and the baby… they couldn’t make it” Ohno stepped up. “They’re both gone.”
“What?” Sho couldn’t believe it.
“The baby didn’t have her body system prepared to come to this world, and Himawari was too weak, the doctor said the pain was too much for her body.”
“No, this can’t be” Sho put both his hands on his head and letting his weight fall and started crying desperately. “Himawari” he said between sobs. “It’s my entire fault, she was worried about me. I yelled at her… I killed her… I killed them.” Sho cried his heart out. “I’m never gonna be a father”
“She said to tell you she loved you with all her heart.” Karina said going up to Sho and kneeling before him.
“Himawari, I’m sorry… I’m sorry baby” Sho said still crying on the floor.
“I’ll be here around midnight” Sho said taking his car keys from the table close to the door. Himawari was in the room putting the finishing touches on her hair.
“Okay, I’m not gonna stay for too long on the bachelorette party, I don’t feel to good.” Himawari said closing the door of the room after her and walked to Sho who was on the living room. “What you looking at?” She asked when she noticed Sho was looking at her and didn’t even blink. Sho smiled and looked at her eyes.
“You look beautiful” Sho said hugging her, she smiled and hugged back. When they were about to kiss the door bell rang. Sho sighed and went to open the door.
“Kara-chan Hello” Sho said letting Aiba’s now official girlfriend in.
“Where is your lovely wife?” Karina said while taking her shoes off.
“Here” Himawari replied from the living room.
“Girls I have to go, I didn’t know it was part of the best man job to be a magic mirror and tell the groom how fantastic he looks.” Sho said annoyed. He walked up to his wife, gave her a kiss and gave a peak to her not so big belly.
The girls watched as Sho gave them a final wave and closed the door behind him.
“Come on, Jachira is waiting on Hikari’s house”
“Let me just get my purse and we can be on our way.” Himawari went to the corridor and took her purse form the perch. Closing the door, the two girls climbed into the car and made their way to the bachelorette party they planned for Jachira (Matsumoto Jun’s fiancé) in Ohno’s and Hikari’s house.
“Thanks, and sorry again for the trouble” Himawari apologies for the hundred time to Karina, when she pulled up in front of the Sakurai household.
“Not to worry, I had to go anyway, I have worked tomorrow” Karina reassured Himawari watching as she got of the car. “Are you gonna be okay? You said you felt weird at the party”
“It’s ok I think is just stomached” Himawari smiled and saying their goodbyes Karina started the car and drove off and Himawari entered her house.
Himawari looked at the clock and saw it was 11:30, Sho said he was gonna be there at midnight so she went to the living room to wait for him. Almost an hour had passed and still there was no Sho, Himawari got up from the sofa to get the phone and call Sho but on the way she got dizzy and had to stop walking and hold on to the chair from the dining table. After she could see correctly again, she let out a swallowed breath and continued her way to the phone.
She dialed Sho’s number and waited for him to pick it up but he didn’t, she tried for a while but still no Sho. With unsteady steps she walked back to the sofa and sat down. Himawari started wandering if Sho was okay so she tried every number of the Arashi clan and ended up with no answers. Now she started to think that something seriously what’s wrong. She tried again calling Sho’s phone again.
“Sho” Himawari almost scream when he picked up. “Where are you?” she asked worried.
“I’m on my way” Sho replayed.
“Are you driving?” she asked more worried, if that was possible, when she notice he was drunk from the way he was talking.
“Yes” Sho sounded annoyed.
“You shouldn’t be driving while your drunk” Himawari started to get dizzy again so she closed her eyes and rubbed her temple.
“Stop nagging me woman, I’m almost there” Sho screamed and shut the phone.
“Sho don’t-Ah!” in that moment Himawari bent forward with a stabbing pain coming from her stomach. She took the phone again, dialed Karina’s phone and took a steadying breath to help her control her pain.
“Moshi Mosh” came the sleepy voice of Karina.
“Kara-chan, would you come over, I think my water just broke and Sho’s not here” Himawari said it all in one breath then screamed again as another stabbing pain went through her body.
“On my way”
As Karina’s house wan not far from the Sakurai’s she got there in less than 5 minutes. Karina assisted Himawari to the car and speed up to the closest hospital, getting there with a screaming Himawari.
Sho got to the house about 10 or 15 minutes after Karina arrived to take Himawari to the hospital. The phone started ringing and Sho rolled his eyes and went to get it.
“Sho-chan?” came the voice of Nino form the other line.
“Yes”
“You have to come down to the hospital; Himawari had problems with her pregnancy.”
As those words got to Sho’s head he hanged the phone and sprinted out of the house and drove to the hospital, drunkenness forgotten. When he got there, he asked where the maternity level and sprinted to it when the receptionist told him.
Sho got to the floor and found all the other Arashi members with their wife’s. When he saw is friends he instantly knew something was not right, they all had dark looks and the women had tears on their eyes.
“What happened” Sho asked hoping the answer wasn’t the one he thought.
“She had complications in her pregnancy, she didn’t notice or she didn’t mind them” Jachira said after an uncomfortable silence. “The doctor said something must have upset her or she made a wrong move to cause the emergency deliver.” Jachira started to explain but had to stop because she lost her voice. Sho looked at everyone and tears started to weld up in his eyes.
“Someone please, tell me what’s wrong”
“She… and the baby… they couldn’t make it” Ohno stepped up. “They’re both gone.”
“What?” Sho couldn’t believe it.
“The baby didn’t have her body system prepared to come to this world, and Himawari was too weak, the doctor said the pain was too much for her body.”
“No, this can’t be” Sho put both his hands on his head and letting his weight fall and started crying desperately. “Himawari” he said between sobs. “It’s my entire fault, she was worried about me. I yelled at her… I killed her… I killed them.” Sho cried his heart out. “I’m never gonna be a father”
“She said to tell you she loved you with all her heart.” Karina said going up to Sho and kneeling before him.
“Himawari, I’m sorry… I’m sorry baby” Sho said still crying on the floor.