flesh and bone
I don't know what I was experiencing last night that caused me to become ill; after a few hours of sitting in the Clinics, (and after a few tabs of Ativan) I felt perfectly healthy. The physician at HQ couldn't find anything wrong either, though he asked if I'd ingested anything caustic...
Of all the trials and traumas I've suffered, living in fear of my own body is the worst thing that my mind can concieve of. Though Eiko's technology keeps the cancer at bay, though it bears the marks of my crimes, masters past and present, it is mine. Monstrous and weak, an enduring reminder of my cursed parents, it has always been the single constant part of my being, the one thing that could not be altered or taken away from me. That it could be turning on me once more, jeopardizing my life with an unseen malady or simply as a result if time's ravagings.... and yet, I am still too cowardly to shrug it off in exchange for light and metal.
Of all the trials and traumas I've suffered, living in fear of my own body is the worst thing that my mind can concieve of. Though Eiko's technology keeps the cancer at bay, though it bears the marks of my crimes, masters past and present, it is mine. Monstrous and weak, an enduring reminder of my cursed parents, it has always been the single constant part of my being, the one thing that could not be altered or taken away from me. That it could be turning on me once more, jeopardizing my life with an unseen malady or simply as a result if time's ravagings.... and yet, I am still too cowardly to shrug it off in exchange for light and metal.