&this bird you cannot change..
its over, but it still hurts. i think it always will. and to know that he's so 'over me &moved on' sucks, because im still not. i would like to be, i would love to say that ive moved on, that i dont love him anymore, that i dont care or give a fuck.
but i do. its hard. i spend a year and a half with him. its hard to just not think of someone so quick after so long.
im such a hardass, you know it, i know it. &theres a reason i come off like that, cause i dont want anyone thinking that they can get right in with me, and be my best friend. i dont believe in best friends anymore. best friends only find out stuff about you; to use against you when its convenient for them. thats why i hate being friends with girls; cause theyre always the ones to fuck shit up. always. thats why most of my best friends are guys. guys hate drama; i hate drama; it makes sense.
i always told myself to not let anyone in, not to trust anyone. and i did, with both him and Kat, and wouldnt you know it, they both fucked me over.
just like ive always been scared of. cause i know how it feels. just like ive always tried to protect myself from.
i guess thats why from now on, i dont want anything to do with guys for relationship purposes.
as of right now, i am a player. in fact, in this game, im the MVP. dont ever, ever think you are gonna get something over on me, because i am already doing it to you and 5 other guys. but you know, i gotta get mine. so all you boys out there who are thinking that theyre gonna get me on the rebound... yeah right. im off the rebound, and shooting from fucking half court.
im out.
[[p.s. - im way fucking horny]]
but i do. its hard. i spend a year and a half with him. its hard to just not think of someone so quick after so long.
im such a hardass, you know it, i know it. &theres a reason i come off like that, cause i dont want anyone thinking that they can get right in with me, and be my best friend. i dont believe in best friends anymore. best friends only find out stuff about you; to use against you when its convenient for them. thats why i hate being friends with girls; cause theyre always the ones to fuck shit up. always. thats why most of my best friends are guys. guys hate drama; i hate drama; it makes sense.
i always told myself to not let anyone in, not to trust anyone. and i did, with both him and Kat, and wouldnt you know it, they both fucked me over.
just like ive always been scared of. cause i know how it feels. just like ive always tried to protect myself from.
i guess thats why from now on, i dont want anything to do with guys for relationship purposes.
as of right now, i am a player. in fact, in this game, im the MVP. dont ever, ever think you are gonna get something over on me, because i am already doing it to you and 5 other guys. but you know, i gotta get mine. so all you boys out there who are thinking that theyre gonna get me on the rebound... yeah right. im off the rebound, and shooting from fucking half court.
im out.
[[p.s. - im way fucking horny]]