the REAL update for Feb 18th, 2009
I only return to you live journal because I think its interesting to read over what kind of situations I've been in in the past, and also how I perceived those situations, especially when under such stressful emotions. I could tell that in the last entry, I was trying to sound so proper, but I was secretly so fucking pissed off and hurt at the decisions made. I let it out a little at the end, but I guess thats just because I know myself the best. Anyways, on to today's blurb about life and how its progressing thus far:
Okay, so I'm doing alright. I'm still over at subway. Started August 16th, and tomorrow is February 19th... So, thats like 6 months. I'm making decent amount of money to pay for gas, car insurance, my beautiful beautiful girlfriend Kayla Jean Kendric, and everything else. Well, I guess I should clue myself from the huge gap between the last entry and this one. Well, obviously, the whole "we're going to remain friends" didn't play off too well for either of us and we both seriously wanted each other too badly to let it happen. I think I pushed for it because I was so persistent for her, and kind of made it VERY apparent that I wanted her...always and forever and my mind wasn't going to change. We've been together for 9 months last Friday...and its truly everything I've ever hoped for. I cannot picture myself loving anyone as much as Kayla. I may sound quite naive for saying this, but I really would like to marry her. I really would like to grow older with her, cruising through the rigorous college life, living together and facing future quarrels, facing the problems of future children, and all that is associated with growing older together. I mean, even today, I randomly got that strange 'nervousness' when talking to her on the phone. She captures my heart and I melt with every word she speaks. I simply cannot fully express the way she makes me feel. I know that as I progress through life with her, I will slowly gain the wisdom of how to articulate how much she makes me feel, but I'll lose it all again the next time she looks at me with those innocent brown eyes and recaptures my heart.
So, Kayla and I are doing great. I am in love and I treasure every moment with her. She's everything to me in this world. And she knows it :]
Okay, lets shift to college. I'm at grossmont, right. I'm venturing on transfering to UCSD. I'm just so... confused at the moment for what is required of me to meet the expectations to be allowed to do so. I'm going to talk to my counselor at grossmont tomorrow so hopefully I can fully understand all of this jazz. Oh - I changed my major to neuropsychology if you didn't know. I recently became interested in the brain and how it functions, and how it shapes people, and how learning happens, and how problems in the brain are rewired elsewhere, and how things are constantly changing, and how the brain is more than just a simple machine that cannot change itself. I bought 2 books for 'pleasure reading' on the subject, and I'm still in the middle of those and working on them. It's just hard to find time to read them when actual required classes require attention to first. But anywho - hopefully all goes well for this future quest. I hope to enjoy learning about the subject and acquiring a job which pays substantial amount of money :] Can't wait to go to MEDICAL SCHOOL! EEK! There goes my money :]
Okay, trevor - out!
Okay, so I'm doing alright. I'm still over at subway. Started August 16th, and tomorrow is February 19th... So, thats like 6 months. I'm making decent amount of money to pay for gas, car insurance, my beautiful beautiful girlfriend Kayla Jean Kendric, and everything else. Well, I guess I should clue myself from the huge gap between the last entry and this one. Well, obviously, the whole "we're going to remain friends" didn't play off too well for either of us and we both seriously wanted each other too badly to let it happen. I think I pushed for it because I was so persistent for her, and kind of made it VERY apparent that I wanted her...always and forever and my mind wasn't going to change. We've been together for 9 months last Friday...and its truly everything I've ever hoped for. I cannot picture myself loving anyone as much as Kayla. I may sound quite naive for saying this, but I really would like to marry her. I really would like to grow older with her, cruising through the rigorous college life, living together and facing future quarrels, facing the problems of future children, and all that is associated with growing older together. I mean, even today, I randomly got that strange 'nervousness' when talking to her on the phone. She captures my heart and I melt with every word she speaks. I simply cannot fully express the way she makes me feel. I know that as I progress through life with her, I will slowly gain the wisdom of how to articulate how much she makes me feel, but I'll lose it all again the next time she looks at me with those innocent brown eyes and recaptures my heart.
So, Kayla and I are doing great. I am in love and I treasure every moment with her. She's everything to me in this world. And she knows it :]
Okay, lets shift to college. I'm at grossmont, right. I'm venturing on transfering to UCSD. I'm just so... confused at the moment for what is required of me to meet the expectations to be allowed to do so. I'm going to talk to my counselor at grossmont tomorrow so hopefully I can fully understand all of this jazz. Oh - I changed my major to neuropsychology if you didn't know. I recently became interested in the brain and how it functions, and how it shapes people, and how learning happens, and how problems in the brain are rewired elsewhere, and how things are constantly changing, and how the brain is more than just a simple machine that cannot change itself. I bought 2 books for 'pleasure reading' on the subject, and I'm still in the middle of those and working on them. It's just hard to find time to read them when actual required classes require attention to first. But anywho - hopefully all goes well for this future quest. I hope to enjoy learning about the subject and acquiring a job which pays substantial amount of money :] Can't wait to go to MEDICAL SCHOOL! EEK! There goes my money :]
Okay, trevor - out!