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So I've been sick so I decided to take a day off. Sleep. Catch up with it. Been sick different ways too. I love it when she does that pigtail thing. I hate it when I do that cheating thing. I melt with that "tail" thing. It's not that "girls are bad" it is "me thats bad". Suprisingly the only thing keeping me going is my work. Music doesn't even seem to do the job. Since my friend department has seemed to be lacking all I have is myself. Which is depressing in it's self. Bynum left so I didn't get me second vote for MDS. The threat of the AP exam is getting closer. Maria was right. Listening to STP while you're already depressed makes it ten times worse. I've been avoiding "old" close friends as much as possible. Not just him. Slowly becoming more anti-social by the day. But that doesn't matter really. If I regret one thing in my life. It was "that". I had all I ever wanted. Anger drove it to infernem. But Stevie say's "..everything happens for a reason". So I assume it was best for her. Yet I won't accept that. I'll get what I want. Or die trying.