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so i'm back in school. i guess it's ok. considering i've been here an eternal week so far... not much of a measuring stick i guess. i thought i would make this just an information update... maybe not abstract or anything. it doesn't matter. the others usually come out like shit anyway. but i'm trying... to do what, i don't know. just trying to find a purpose for existence... i guess in all the wrong places. i have so many things that stay locked up inside, that pretty much eat away. but that's where they're going to stay. anytime i try to talk about them with anyone, including myself, bad, sometimes even descructive things happen. it's not that i want to be depressed... it's just it seems like it's the only thing i know anymore. when people are around me, they don't really understand... and i don't blame them either. i wish i could, just for one day, just stop all the things that i think about... the same things i've thought about for what seems like an eternity now... on a good note, there are some incredible, incredible shows coming to nashville... and i don't throw that term around lightly. every time i die on september 15th. and i also know from autumn to ashes is coming, but i can't remember the exact date. and then on halloween... holy shit... nine inch nails. fuck, fuck yes.