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i'm not having a very wonderful day at school.
yesterday was not the most wonderful valentine's day. i expected way too much of it.
i'm really supposed to be typing up an essay; not updating this. but it's the only site i know for sure that's not blocked.
i'm not going to say much. let's just say that my self esteem has reached very low. and i hurt my boyfriend emotionally yesterday; pretty badly. i fixed it, of course. because i did not have intentions on hurting him. and also i have been devoting my time afterschool until six to the musical. which is annoying. but also, it has been a good time to read my book, listen to music, and recollect myself.
i feel positively insensitive and uncaring lately. except for towards shawn. which, is extremely ... not good. i'm not a bad person. i don't hate anyone. i get along with people easily. although i may be quiet and very observational, that doesn't mean i hate you. or don't want to talk to you.
i have a very odd way of getting to know people.
my dad apparently called me yesterday, too. i haven't talked to him since christmas. christmas. i'm afraid of what he has to say to me. probably nothing important. just. it feels weird pretending like it's ohkay that we see each other for a weekend, and then afterwards just, not talk for two to three months. and then do it again. there's no update-calls anywhere between that time. no out-to-dinner-just-because. nothing that you'd think would be happening with a joined custody.
whatever.
yesterday was not the most wonderful valentine's day. i expected way too much of it.
i'm really supposed to be typing up an essay; not updating this. but it's the only site i know for sure that's not blocked.
i'm not going to say much. let's just say that my self esteem has reached very low. and i hurt my boyfriend emotionally yesterday; pretty badly. i fixed it, of course. because i did not have intentions on hurting him. and also i have been devoting my time afterschool until six to the musical. which is annoying. but also, it has been a good time to read my book, listen to music, and recollect myself.
i feel positively insensitive and uncaring lately. except for towards shawn. which, is extremely ... not good. i'm not a bad person. i don't hate anyone. i get along with people easily. although i may be quiet and very observational, that doesn't mean i hate you. or don't want to talk to you.
i have a very odd way of getting to know people.
my dad apparently called me yesterday, too. i haven't talked to him since christmas. christmas. i'm afraid of what he has to say to me. probably nothing important. just. it feels weird pretending like it's ohkay that we see each other for a weekend, and then afterwards just, not talk for two to three months. and then do it again. there's no update-calls anywhere between that time. no out-to-dinner-just-because. nothing that you'd think would be happening with a joined custody.
whatever.