Old Journal Entry 1 of 5
I found a folder on my computer with five journal entiries that I made around the start of my freashman year here at MSU...I read over them and enjoyed remenising. I can't believe the feelings it brought back...
7/26/2003 4:38 PM -- Orientation
Today must have been the first day that I realized just how badly I am going to miss my beautiful Em. Throughout all of orientation I was fine, not really giving it much thought that today was the first step in leaving my Emily behind, but when I saw a couple with their arms around each other’s waists my heart sank. It hit me that I’m not going to be with her everyday as I have become so accustomed to. And as I think on it more and more my heart aches more and more. I know we’ll make it through my years in college as a couple, there isn’t a doubt in my mind concerning this, but when I think about my spirit and how it has fed off of her smiles and laughs I’m not sure I’ll be able to make it through college without her. Yes, I’ll see her on the weekends, on breaks, and next summer, but that doesn’t even come close to quenching my thirst for her.
To me, she truly is a necessity. I must find another way to be with her more, but I don’t know how. It isn’t practical for me to come home in the middle of the week just to see her, but then you must ask…Is love practical??? I honestly don’t believe it is, it is unpredictable, uncontrollable, and in my experiences so far, most inconvenient. But I love love, and it is something I can’t let go of now.
7/26/2003 4:38 PM -- Orientation
Today must have been the first day that I realized just how badly I am going to miss my beautiful Em. Throughout all of orientation I was fine, not really giving it much thought that today was the first step in leaving my Emily behind, but when I saw a couple with their arms around each other’s waists my heart sank. It hit me that I’m not going to be with her everyday as I have become so accustomed to. And as I think on it more and more my heart aches more and more. I know we’ll make it through my years in college as a couple, there isn’t a doubt in my mind concerning this, but when I think about my spirit and how it has fed off of her smiles and laughs I’m not sure I’ll be able to make it through college without her. Yes, I’ll see her on the weekends, on breaks, and next summer, but that doesn’t even come close to quenching my thirst for her.
To me, she truly is a necessity. I must find another way to be with her more, but I don’t know how. It isn’t practical for me to come home in the middle of the week just to see her, but then you must ask…Is love practical??? I honestly don’t believe it is, it is unpredictable, uncontrollable, and in my experiences so far, most inconvenient. But I love love, and it is something I can’t let go of now.