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A few things:
Goals:
Earlier on in the year I created a list of goals to achieve by June. I'm happy to report that I accomplished all of them except one. I accomplished: organising my passport, visiting Melbourne, booking an overseas trip (I've booked two!), and to save a certain amount of money. I even accomplished a non-documented goal which popped up along the way, and that was booking the TEFL course. The goal I failed at was losing 10kg. Instead, I've put on about 20kg since working here on the mine site. Who would think that's possible with a 24 hour gym to use free of charge. But working minimum 12 hour days takes its toll. Also, when you're away from all your friends and family in the middle of nowhere, you tend to lose a sense of yourself and food becomes the only enjoyable thing in the day. Especially cakes and ice cream. I really need to fix this...I've never felt so crap about myself. Especially when I put in so much effort losing that 25kg. I will be setting a new set of goals to achieve by the end of the year.
Adventures:
I'm really excited about the few adventures I've got lined up. Bali in three weeks, and then the USA with Anna and Chantal for five weeks. One of those weeks I will be alone in California. I chose to do it that way. I'm really feeling the need to get out of my comfort zone alone. I just really think doing something like that is what I need. Right now I am starting to research my options in regards to a working holiday overseas. I was thinking Germany because I want to experience the place my roots are from. Plus, it's Europe, duh. But Canada is also looking like a really good option. I'll be making a decision by the end of the year.
Disappointment:
I'm really disappointed with a certain situation. It's a pretty lame thing but it really means a lot to me. I keep trying not to think about it but it just keeps bringing me down down down. I guess I'm just someone who can't switch off, and I mean that in several ways. I have had times when I've felt down and lost, but I never really withdraw. I guess everyone has their own ways of dealing with things, but it's hard to understand when someone else's way of dealing with situations is different to yours. I don't really want to explain anymore on that. Whatever will be...will be!
Today has been a CRAP day at work. I can't wait to finish tonight and read some books. I can't wait to play with my new camera again. I'm going to drag the new lomo fisheye out next break, too.
Right now I feel like I'm just WAITING for something and not actually living. I'm the one making myself wait, because I have a goal to reach 12 months of employment here before moving on. I want to feel like I've truly deserved the next big change. I value my aspirations so much right now because I know they're something I have to work towards. I don't just want it to come easy this time. I want to fight for this overdue exploration of the world and myself.
♥
Goals:
Earlier on in the year I created a list of goals to achieve by June. I'm happy to report that I accomplished all of them except one. I accomplished: organising my passport, visiting Melbourne, booking an overseas trip (I've booked two!), and to save a certain amount of money. I even accomplished a non-documented goal which popped up along the way, and that was booking the TEFL course. The goal I failed at was losing 10kg. Instead, I've put on about 20kg since working here on the mine site. Who would think that's possible with a 24 hour gym to use free of charge. But working minimum 12 hour days takes its toll. Also, when you're away from all your friends and family in the middle of nowhere, you tend to lose a sense of yourself and food becomes the only enjoyable thing in the day. Especially cakes and ice cream. I really need to fix this...I've never felt so crap about myself. Especially when I put in so much effort losing that 25kg. I will be setting a new set of goals to achieve by the end of the year.
Adventures:
I'm really excited about the few adventures I've got lined up. Bali in three weeks, and then the USA with Anna and Chantal for five weeks. One of those weeks I will be alone in California. I chose to do it that way. I'm really feeling the need to get out of my comfort zone alone. I just really think doing something like that is what I need. Right now I am starting to research my options in regards to a working holiday overseas. I was thinking Germany because I want to experience the place my roots are from. Plus, it's Europe, duh. But Canada is also looking like a really good option. I'll be making a decision by the end of the year.
Disappointment:
I'm really disappointed with a certain situation. It's a pretty lame thing but it really means a lot to me. I keep trying not to think about it but it just keeps bringing me down down down. I guess I'm just someone who can't switch off, and I mean that in several ways. I have had times when I've felt down and lost, but I never really withdraw. I guess everyone has their own ways of dealing with things, but it's hard to understand when someone else's way of dealing with situations is different to yours. I don't really want to explain anymore on that. Whatever will be...will be!
Today has been a CRAP day at work. I can't wait to finish tonight and read some books. I can't wait to play with my new camera again. I'm going to drag the new lomo fisheye out next break, too.
Right now I feel like I'm just WAITING for something and not actually living. I'm the one making myself wait, because I have a goal to reach 12 months of employment here before moving on. I want to feel like I've truly deserved the next big change. I value my aspirations so much right now because I know they're something I have to work towards. I don't just want it to come easy this time. I want to fight for this overdue exploration of the world and myself.
♥